Every Night

It's noon, when I'm happiest,

When my smile is the brightest

And the world seems at its best.

Three o'clock's the same,

My mind is far from tame,

Life burns hot as an open flame.

Then comes six and seven and eight,

I start to worry about my weight

And think of every calorie I ate.

Nine o'clock and I'm all alone,

It's there my thoughts start more to grow

And all my happiness is gone.

Then comes ten and I'm sobbing hard,

My mind encompassed in deep dark,

My happiness blackened, burnt and charred.

Eleven's next and it's getting worse,

Life seems suddenly to reverse,

In pain I myself immerse.

Midnight and it's been twelve hours.

I wonder how I began to feel so sour

As my body the pain just overpowers.

It's one in the morning and I want to die,

I find the pills and I really try

But alas, there is for me no good-bye.

At three, I'm in the deepest pit,

I hate myself, I feel like s**t.

I know I'm so inadequate.

Five o'clock and I've got no rest.

I don't think I've ever been so stressed.

I guess that's what comes from being depressed.

Then eight and nine, I'm wasting away

But I can't escape, to my dismay,

Though I hope I don't outlast the day.

Noon comes again and the circle restarts

As I watch the damage I do to my heart

I've really torn my life apart.