Silent Angels Whisper * Part II: Smotri Na Menya (See me) - Chapter 5

“Hey, are you okay?” Lune asked from behind me as he closed the hotel room door.

 

                I sighed and nodded as I continued staring up at the stars. After I left the scene at the other hotel we were able to find a cheaper hotel which was nowhere near as nice. But we had been able to get two rooms, one for the guys, and one for me and the girls. Everyone had quickly fallen asleep, but I had left and gone to sit with my feet in the pool.

 

                Lune came up next to me and stuck his feet in beside me, joining me in watching the stars.

 

“’Shhh, Angel, I’ll never let you go.’ Who the hell is Angel, why is there a voice in my mind and why does it seem familiar?!” I suddenly burst, clenching my fists at my sides.

 

                Lune just shook his head and shrugged, giving me one of his sympathetic smiles. I suppressed a shriek and stood up to pace. Lune watched me as I walked back and forth before exploding again.

 

“It’s just so frustrating! I know there’s something missing but I don’t know what!” I cried, gripping the hair on my head in frustration.

 

“I know Engel, I know.” Lune whispered as he stood up and walked toward me.

 

                He gently took my hands and pulled them away from my head, probably afraid I was on the verge of strangling myself.

 

“I just can’t figure it out. We live every single day like it’s the last one. Just going day by day, never knowing what to expect. I’m tired of it Lune. I’m tired of being so scared that something bad will happen.” I whispered, looking into his deep blue eyes.

 

“I know, but right now there are no other options. We just have to make the best of every day.” Lune soothed, rubbing his thumbs on my hands.

 

“And then what? What happens when something goes wrong? Where are we then?” I asked, as a single tear began to roll down my cheek.

 

“We’re together, that’s all that matters. ‘Together forever, never apart, maybe a distance, but never in heart.’ That’s what you tell the girls, and that’s what we will always be.” Lune answered, wiping my tear away with his index finger.

 

“Always?” I whispered

 

“Forever. I promise.” Lune whispered back, looking right into my eyes.

 

                For another minute we just stood there, staring right into each other’s eyes before I finally pulled mine away to look back up at the sky. The moon was shining high among the brilliance of stars.

 

“We should get some sleep.” Lune suggested, smiling at me.

 

                I nodded and walked behind him as we went back to our hotel rooms. Ever since we met Lune had always been there for me. He knew me way better than Tod or the girls. I trusted him, and for some reason it was a perfect match.

 

                A year ago I had been alone, but there in the hotel room I realized I couldn’t live like I was alone anymore. There was too much danger. I had evolved into a group worker, fighting to protect everyone, being a ‘mom’ for Shavi and Zori, but I still had feelings. That had to be my weakness. That had to be what I needed to change. I could no longer be weak. I had to be strong enough to catch everyone else when they fell.