SchaudenfreudeA Poem by JanelleI’ve been feeling light, And I don’t have a reason why But fifteen years have shy gone by And I’m done questioning the way of things It started with a dream A tactful tear upon the seams Of fortune’s greatest mystery Its thread unwinding down beneath my feet Before it leaves in sly retreat To you it’s just a game Deriving pleasure from my pain A creature walking midst the short of breath clearing the distance between me and death You called upon this hopeless dreamer Pinched between your thumb, forefinger Wrestled in a stroke of nerves And laughing as you pulled upon my life Unraveling my dignity At mercy to the golden sea Of your contempt and wicked thought Or maybe that’s me playing my lot Losing to your game Giving you pleasure with my pain And though I know you’re all the same I can’t help shivering at the thought of slacking Kneeling before you, and crushed beneath the ground into Another ditch of empty memories that whisper of the happiness I knew To you it’s just a game So why should I try to stay sane In this abomination of occupation A sad excuse for decent company Why are you so obsessed With banging down upon my chest With tantalizing ill requests that give me hope when failure is my best shot I’m through with losing to your game The outcome is always the same, I’d call it a tasteless cliché if you would spare some time to hear I know You’re all the same Deriving pleasure from my pain I see you smile to watch me squirm And plead the fifth when you bare question To you it’s just the same Deriving pleasure from my pain And feeding out into your putty hands Deflated from your heinous acts Of fiddling with the strings Upon the fate of destiny And dragging me out from the light After I’d given you my life because To you it’s just a game Deriving pleasure from my pain A sideshow act for you to speculate And question how to steer the story To you it’s just a game Deriving pleasure from my pain A sideshow act for you to speculate And question how to steer my story To you it’s just a game Deriving pleasure from my pain A sideshow act for you to speculate Let’s hope it doesn’t end up gory © 2017 Janelle |
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Added on October 8, 2017 Last Updated on October 8, 2017 |