I'm Not Okay

The story of the parasite

I'm not okay, and it's because I can't let go, and not because I don't want to but because she has this hold on me that I can't shake off. It's like I have a parasite biting into my back. Sometimes it's dormant and I can almost fool myself into thinking that she got tired of the same food source and left to find another; but then I feel her feeding on me again for days on end that drains me of my energy. Some days are worse than others, it's like she wants to torture me by biting hard, feeding on more than I can give without dying. In an effort to try to make a best of a situation I convince myself that this is a mutualistic relationship. In her gaining nutrients, I gain a friend.

That's not the case.

Reviews

[Annette Pisano-Higley]

Wow! What an original and powerful way to describe a "parasitic" relationship- "feeding on more than I can give without dying"-honest , raw and brilliant line. Graphic imagery- "I have a parasite biting into my back" - I can feel that! Sometimes parasites can be friends in the natural world symbiotically -but I have doubts here....if you decide not- make sure you remove all parts of this bloodsucker or she will fester in you! Well-done!