I ! don't leave me

Why they are driving me to be like this…?
Those damn unclear feelings !
I can not recognize what's in front of me
Is it a storm or a hurricane..?
I am so scared my own self will get up and run..
Run so far away..
I am alone, so alone in a scary black place
I have lost everything
Can not remember the me I was yesterday
The good memories, the warm features I drew on my face..
My smile, laugh and my optimist side
The me that I used to be and always liked
I miss myself, yep myself !
My face became so cold, lost its features
Now it seems fading towards a blank space
I am so scared of myself
I want to escape, but I can not..
Can not move anymore
Can not stand up
Feel really useless..
What should I do?
Mom? Dad? Sister & Best friend?
I am losing everything I did enjoy few years ago.. few months ago..
I am losing it.. "Myself"
I am going crazy, holding my tears like a stupid little brat
I wanna scream
Would you be able to hear me this time?
I am broken..
What am I doing? What will I do?
I wanna run and escape
Would you be able to catch and hug me tigh this time?
I am destroyed
No one is by my side
No one is out here..
Even those dark shadows that used to scar me have left the place
I can't sense their and your presence anymore
Nothing besides my dead body
Turning into an ugly corpse..
Would someone find me?
try to revive the me who's sleeping in this feezing body?
A resuscitation ! Isn't that easy
But would someone of you try to save me from a living death..
There is nothing that I can do
I need you, & I need your help
Would someone save me?
I !
Don't let me here in the dark alone..
You have been the only one I am relaying on lately...
I !
Don't leave me behind…
I am so scared, so lonely…
Don't leave me !

Reviews

[Black Jess]

Hey, this might be because of the medecine you're taking... U know, No one can really lose himself, i mean you can feel that you're not yourself for so long but then yourelf will find you soul because it's a part of it and you'll became yourself once again ! You're not someone bad, you're not a monster, even if you feel tha you're acting like one, the horrible things that you think you're doing aren't coming from the real you. Only the good people feels that they are bad, the bad ones don't even think abt it ! So dry your tears because you're not alone and you won't be, I'm still here if u forgot, and I won't let you be someone else but yourself, I won't let you down. Take all those baf ideas out of your pretty mind and restore it . You're the most kind and nice person I've ever met, and it's true I'm not flattering. Great job though =)