Make it shine

Make it shine

Falling deep & deep in darkness 

that hole of my thoughts 

I wanna stop pretending to be strong

I wanna stop breathing so hard

It's scary out here..

Stifles my gaze away..

I scream loudly but no one could hear

what should I do? I am losing strength

I've never experienced defeat.. 

Now that I know what is it !

I can not move my legs !

I really do understand what did those words mean

They all tell me everything is gonna be alright

But I still can not get it .. this idea 

I've taken by heart everyone's expressions..

It's not about I don't understand them, but deep inside ...

I can not believe it yet.      "The truth" !

I used to dream.. Dream so big, highly that my hands could reach the sky!

& Now I can't even see where the horizon of this mess is 

I am so scared my dearest, I am afraid of what will happen

Something is burning here in my heart 

even when your words pop up on my head and make me smile deeply

I still can not feel secured

Dizzy on my way ..

Can not see, can not breath

Me ! that "shooting star"

Will I shine as I always wanted to?

Will I shine the sky I dreamed to reach?

I am so afraid that even my tears wanna escape from those eyelashes

I am afraid my star dies .. 

I am afraid my brightness won't light up that surface

I am afraid my star won't shoot to an endless world. My dream's world

I am afraid you won't shine, afraid you won't glow..
You my rising star..

I am afraid you won't rise up so high to light up my world's sky !

Reviews

[Black Jess]

I always wanted to hug you after reading something sad you wrote. This time I did it ! I'm sorry i can't understand you sometimes, i really wish i could ! It must be terrible for you to not be understandable, and not having someone who ubderstands you, even me ! I'm sorry for that my dear =( . I love this piece, i can see awe and disappointement through your words , and i feel this unsuportable pain that these words are carriying, and i'm feeling guilty, guilty for being somehow part of it for my inability to understand you...