The Workings of My Mind

This is pretty rough, I know. But it's closest I've ever come to being able to describe how I my mind actually works. I have a lot of friends who don't really understand how my disability really effects me, or how the accommodations that I receive at scho

 

The Workings of My Mind

 

To the average person
The rainbow can be distracting
Even confusing and intimidating
With no visible connections
No apparent system
Just random words
Random strokes of the highlighter

The desk is a sea of papers
Deep enough to drown the foreign mind
Blue, yellow, purple, pink, white
Different waves of colour
No sense of logic involved
Only my associations
Stacks of paper clutter a corner
Sets of them turned different ways
To anyone this is chaos

This noise I hear from over there
Is drowned out with the press of a button
To a common ear it sounds like annoying static
To me it is a comforting sound
Provides me with a place of solitude
Silence is my enemy
A break within it can capture my attention
This static is my savior
My grounding force

Forget having a contained memory
My memory is external
A visual representation
A wallpaper of Post-It notes
No need to struggle to recall anything
Simply survey the surroundings
Due dates, places, times
Everything important
A glance away
Impossible to forget

An average person has no idea
Of the complexities of my mind

In my mind
My room is not chaos
Everything is in order, connected
The static is a comforting sound
That can block out the world
The colour captures me attention
And holds onto it
My 'wallpaper' serves a purpose
I dump my memories when I enter my room
These are my tools that make school and life achievable

That is the workings of my mind

Reviews

[Kim]

being a special ed aide I enjoyed the insight into your mind. Made me think of several of my students. Your words relayed the message well. Thank you for sharing the workings of your mind

[Kelsey]

Superb!