Waiting To Forgive You

The poem about my depressing friendship with someone who was never my friend but would say that he is my "best friend".

 

Waiting To Forgive You

Curves, black, red and pale

Every letter written on your school bag

All the words go stale.

Weren’t those written by our friends on the last day

With the colourless markers of age

They are all there, stuck in my head

Like stunning words from a different language.

 

But the leaves shed off

The peaceful blue sky turned grey

The even red turned rough

Where is the hope, where is the ray?

 

I still have the memories of you and me

Our friendship that looked all so true

I still have bells in the back of my head

Believe it or not, I’m waiting to forgive you.

 

Those classes in which we sat together

You taught me hi-fives

And raps of Eminem, I gather.

Remember the drama with your ex-girlfriend?

And the trust that you never had on me?

And when she left you for a new boyfriend

“Warned you long ago, didn’t I, really?

 

I still have the memories of you and me

Endlessly insulting her, until apart, we grew.

I still remember the 12^th of December, when you said “Who’re you?”

But believe it or not, I’m still waiting to forgive you.

 

You trusted me at the last

You came to me, only when you needed.

So here’s this poem as the blast.

Remember how you changed your seats

Was I really that awkward, you adamant?

You had better friends, I understand,

So why did you do the drama of being the best confidant.

 

I still have the memories of you and me

And for all we shared as best friends, I just rue.

Betrayal and insult, is all I ever got.

But still, yes still, I’m waiting to forgive you…

Author's Note

This is one poem which I wrote with extreme sad emotions. Yes, this is completely my story. Everything I and my 'best friend' did. I hope you could feel the heated and watery emotions of this poem.


The tune which might ring with this lyrical piece maybe:

Reviews

[Dana Alsamsam]

this poem was ever so sad and heartbreaking- really focused in on some unique images that come with the difficulty of friendships. especially in high school, relationships can become difficult and complicated, but it helps us learn because in the end we come out knowing who was true and right and who was not. although this may have been sad, i'm sure you learned from it! this was a great piece, your anger and sadness transcended and i love the repetition that you use. good job!

[Shivam Murari]

Yes exactly, great poetess. We, in the end, know, who is wight! And I learned really A LOT from this 'friendship'. Thanks a lot ! :)

[moonlightwriter]

It was kind of sort of the same thing with my suppose to be best friend. She and i just just stopped talking completely that faker i trusted her and in the end she turned out to be a fake but she didnt anyone. i knew who she really was and the person she was pretending to wasnt cool i guess we her other friends werent good enough, thanks a lot for her wasting my time and in the end she leaves.

[Shivam Murari]

That is exactly how these people are! Never trust them! We waste our time on them, only to see them leave when we need them! At the end of the day, it all seems to be no one else's fault, but ours. Because it was our choice to get through with them.
Thank you for the awesome review and expression! :)

[moonlightwriter]

yea no problem. All we can do is forgive them but never know how to trust anyone again.

[Shivam Murari]

:)

[Kristin Lee]

Feeling the betrayal of friendship is such a hard thing to endure at any age. We do experience wanting to forgive them when we have a kind heart. And it's ok to forgive so long as you don't forget what they did to betray you in the first place. IN other words be the bigger person and treat them with kids gloves from them on, knowing they will always be the scorpion that will sting you. Or walk away with your head high. Either option is noble in its own right.

As far as the poem and its power, wow...so serious emotions. Those are often the poems that have the greatest impact on others because they can relate. You have an amazingly strong voice in this piece. Keep that voice and you will do well.

[Shivam Murari]

Thank you so much Kristin. Your words are, wow, really amazingly encouraging! And indeed, as you said, both the options, either walking away or forgiving while keeping in mind that they are betraying piece of scorpion, are equally noble. So it depends on whether we have a thick skin and we can forgive them and try to guard ourselves against the sting or we just walk away!
Thanks a lot :)

[TL Boehm]

I still have bells in the back of my head. What a wonderful line.

[Shivam Murari]

Thank you so much Boehm :)

[Divyanshu Kachhap]

nice write .... and i also know for whom this poem has been written ... keep writing good poems

[Divyanshu Kachhap]

nice write .... and i also know for whom this poem has been written ... keep writing good poems :)

[Shivam Murari]

thanks :)

[Holly Mason]

my heart goes out to you with this friendship
sometimes friends forget....and we wait to forgive them-which by the way is an extremely gifted sentiment
that you have expressed very well...truly
this is written with an open heart that just shows through the writing...it actually brought tears to my eyes for you...how could it not-this friendship meant so much -Hi5's and Eminem
take care a beautiful piece
thank you for sharing

[Shivam Murari]

Thank you so much Holly. You have so well expressed yourself deeply into the small definitions of this poem. Thank you so much! Take Care you too :)

[Peter H]

i feel the drama of the biased discord between friends what i can say is that people change and sometimes the people you thought that would always be your friend end up becoming lost and distant i have a friend dominic we spent every waking day together in highschool and almost a whole year together out of highschool doing odd jobs waiting for uni to accept myself and him , but after uni accepted us we grew apart he felt different he hanged with new friends and i was left stranded alone thank god i had another best friend clement who i spent days with too and i still do recently he visited me in the hospital and i didn't even tell him i was there he came and found out and he just ran to the hospital , its good to have a caring best friend :)

[Shivam Murari]

I'm glad, Peter, that you still have one best friend who would hang out with and the fact that you could relate to my poem, a bit! Life is just about meeting up and then moving on because things just don't tend to work out. Someday, I might also find some constant best friend :)
Thank for coming around, reading and reviewing.

[Bluefire]

This is a very emotional poem.
Filled with sadness and, I wouldn't say "Hate,"
Perhaps reproach? As well as other mixed emotions.
I'm sorry you had to go through this with your best friend.
It made for a great poem anyway! ^^

[Shivam Murari]

Oh! Thank you so much Bluefire :)

[Bluefire]

No problem ^^

[Vikrantsingh]

Made me cry! Its so touching It just took me back to my childhood then young then to my adulthood
It has all what makes a poem perfect sounded very well and has all the content. Proportion of every single color from childhood to adulthood is also performed perfectly :)
Shivam, Its my late friend's b'day on 12th of December who died in road accident. It just took me back to our old memories which we enjoyed and we use to fought and then we use to hug each other and say I'm Sorry bro.

I'm filled with emotions. Thanks for such a wonderful poem :)

I will tribute this to him "Anup"

God Bless him and his family :)

Cheers!
Singh :)

[Shivam Murari]

I'm really sorry about your friend Anup! And then glad too, that you have very happy memories about him, and that my poem acts as a tribute for him. Thanks a lot Viky! :)

[Vikrantsingh]

You're Welcome :).. Just can't believe life act so dramatically. Its been more than 3 years and i feel he is still here with us :)

- Singh :)

[Shivam Murari]

thats nice Viky! Some frnds will never leave u! so rather than being sad for his departure, be glad about the times you had with him! He will be smiling at you from heaven! I can hear his laughter :)

[Vikrantsingh]

:) Thanks for such an encouragement bro :) Cheers!
Singh :)

[Shivam Murari]

cheers ^_^

[Vikrantsingh]

*Thumbs Up*

[Quirkyac]

Oh Shivam! This is SUCH a great poem! So many emotions. You are so good at defining all the emotions. So well structured and so well written! Kudos, man!

[Shivam Murari]

Thanks a lot Quirky :)