Waiting To Forgive You

The poem about my depressing friendship with someone who was never my friend but would say that he is my "best friend".

 

Waiting To Forgive You

Curves, black, red and pale

Every letter written on your school bag

All the words go stale.

Weren’t those written by our friends on the last day

With the colourless markers of age

They are all there, stuck in my head

Like stunning words from a different language.

 

But the leaves shed off

The peaceful blue sky turned grey

The even red turned rough

Where is the hope, where is the ray?

 

I still have the memories of you and me

Our friendship that looked all so true

I still have bells in the back of my head

Believe it or not, I’m waiting to forgive you.

 

Those classes in which we sat together

You taught me hi-fives

And raps of Eminem, I gather.

Remember the drama with your ex-girlfriend?

And the trust that you never had on me?

And when she left you for a new boyfriend

“Warned you long ago, didn’t I, really?

 

I still have the memories of you and me

Endlessly insulting her, until apart, we grew.

I still remember the 12^th of December, when you said “Who’re you?”

But believe it or not, I’m still waiting to forgive you.

 

You trusted me at the last

You came to me, only when you needed.

So here’s this poem as the blast.

Remember how you changed your seats

Was I really that awkward, you adamant?

You had better friends, I understand,

So why did you do the drama of being the best confidant.

 

I still have the memories of you and me

And for all we shared as best friends, I just rue.

Betrayal and insult, is all I ever got.

But still, yes still, I’m waiting to forgive you…

Author's Note

This is one poem which I wrote with extreme sad emotions. Yes, this is completely my story. Everything I and my 'best friend' did. I hope you could feel the heated and watery emotions of this poem.


The tune which might ring with this lyrical piece maybe:

Reviews

[Dana Alsamsam]

this poem was ever so sad and heartbreaking- really focused in on some unique images that come with the difficulty of friendships. especially in high school, relationships can become difficult and complicated, but it helps us learn because in the end we come out knowing who was true and right and who was not. although this may have been sad, i'm sure you learned from it! this was a great piece, your anger and sadness transcended and i love the repetition that you use. good job!

[Shivam Murari]

Yes exactly, great poetess. We, in the end, know, who is wight! And I learned really A LOT from this 'friendship'. Thanks a lot ! :)

[Kaitlyn Raiford]

This really expresses the sense of loss and slight hopes that maybe he will open his eyes and see how much of a best friend that you were. I can tell that you are extremely saddened by the loss of even the fake friend, but even more hurt by the lies that he spilled from his mouth as the two of you "grew close." It was a lovely piece flowing with emotions. Lovely for you to share.

[Shivam Murari]

Thank you so much for reading and saying those beautiful words :)

[Kaitlyn Raiford]

You are welcome. :)

[Rakshit Kumar]

this one was cool man. I like the mention of Eminem! Nice one!

[Shivam Murari]

Haha! Thanks :)

[Tobias Ruperto]

I connect with this so hard! It is great how you can convey that emotion, but its also sad how you had to go through these experiences in order to feel something. Nevertheless good poem dude. I think that's the best reward when it comes to poetry; being able to connect with the reader in such a deep and understanding way.

[Shivam Murari]

I am so sorry you had to go through this. But at the same time, I'm glad that I am not alone with this depression :)

[TheHumbledChild]

Great work!...I went through the same situation with one of my friends so I understand completely what your going through and all the emotions behind it

[Shivam Murari]

Thank you kind sir. I am sorry you had to go through it too! Such people exist in every part of the world, but they are necessary to contrast the glorious happiness in an even brighter way! :)

[TheHumbledChild]

But when need people like that in our life's...too always remind us that color will be needed to fill in their clouds of grey

[TheHumbledChild]

*we need people like that

[Shivam Murari]

That is definitely true sir. Today, I'm actually glad that this happened. I learned so much from this experience.

[Rajat Chandra]

"Forgive all who have offended you, not for them, but for yourself."
~ Harriet Nelson

(And if the above one doesn't make sense... Go for the following ;) )

"Always forgive your enemies - nothing annoys them so much."
~ Oscar Wilde

But then he was not your enemy, but a friend... Hmm right? :S

So let's take it this way, the ones who go away, were never meant to stay :)
Their purpose is fulfilled. He was never a friend in the first place... :)

[Shivam Murari]

In all agreement! The Harriet Nelson's statement, however, makes more sense that Wilde's.
And yes, the person was never my friend in the very first place! And I've, as the lyrics of the background music says, "forgotten about him long enough to forget why I needed too"

[Rajat Chandra]

:) :) :) :) :) :)

[Prritiy]

Its sad one, written touchingly.
It is difficult to forget and forgive and yes often we do try to forgive and with time the pains lessens but it remains somewhere deep.

[Shivam Murari]

All agreed Prrirtiy! Thanks for coming and reading :)

[Prritiy]

you are welcome.

[Divya Punjabi]

each word is knitted with pure emotion i say..! your poem contains some magic which forces the reader to connect their lives with it.. I"m really in love with your poem.. I guess i'm gonna learn a lot from you.. ! ;) Thanxx for giving such a beautiful food for thought.. :)

[Shivam Murari]

Thank you so much Divya! I appreciate your coming around and reading. :)

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Those one really ever forgive let alone forget these things, maybe we simply think better of the people around us, well done, good read.

[Shivam Murari]

Well said, sir! Thanks for reading and expressing. :)

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

Your very welcome.

[Shivam Murari]

:)..... :)