“Heavy Head is Wondering”

When heavy head starts swinging.

It is, a monster that never gets tired,
Can totally destroys both mind, heart and soul,
Tortures without any mercy,
And can consumes its victim whole.

One powerful and very scary word,
Three syllables for whats on the second line,

Victims knows the feeling
Hiding the truth
Hiding the pain,
Victims keeps on pretending

It’s getting harder to hide,
All the feeling i’ve built up inside.

Living my days of endless struggle
Trying to appear normal,
I am not making things, it is true,
I am sick and i don’t know if i can make it through.

I am, a human who misses the fun,
Is she who says “it can’t be done”.

They say i have a lot of things going for me,
I’m sorry seriously, i can’t see,
My worst enemy is inside me,
I love myself but i just can’t set it free.


I told myself to seek for a doctors help
I forgot that i have no money
I told myself to ask someone
I remember that i have no one.

Feels like i’m going crazy
But i’m completely sane
I’m not that lazy,
What’s energy?.

Mind controls the body
I want to keep on fighting
Heavy head is already exhausted
Depression, do you want me to stop breathing?.





H.
120419.7:36pm

Author's Note

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Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is one of the best things I've read describing depression. What makes this super strong & informative is becuz you go further than describing how it feels, you show how impossible life feels, with nobody to turn to, not being able to afford to get professional help, etc. The way you show this, I was picturing this person turning one way & another, always hitting a wall . . . you put that picture in my head with the way you SHOW how this malady goes. I've had depression half my life & you hit it on the head with this way of showing life under the heavy hand of depression! Sorry that you feel this way, but you've made your misery into art! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Shineheemi]

Thank you so much for your appreciation, may God continue to bless you and your loved ones. Hope you’re all healthy. :)

[Apollos]

Sorry...
I’m going to rhyme some of your lines to help undress the unrest currently inside my chest.

“Consumes its victim whole”
Partly but I feel it likes to dress me up like the fool.
Finding a pair of bulls to tell me a parable.
A joker playing poker with all these dogs caught in a fog.

“Victims keep on pretending”
I rather be lending but all “victims know the feeling”
Sometimes I find it a appealing but there is no ceiling from “hiding the truth & pain”

“Living my days of endless struggle”
The pride caused me to tumble.
“All the feeling i’ve built up inside,
It’s getting harder to hide”

“I am not making things, it is true,
I am sick and I don’t know if I can make it through.”

“My worst enemy is inside me,
I love myself but i just can’t set it free”

“Mind controls the body“
I can’t get too haughty.
Maybe I should act like everybody.
“Heavy head is already exhausted“
Yet I already made the deposit.
No use hiding in the closet.
Time to be the boss who’s lost his desire to quit.

Thanks.

[Shineheemi]

Thank you.

[David Klay]

What a powerful write about dealing with depression. Such a difficult thing to deal with and to write about. You expressed yourself very well here.

[Shineheemi]

It is very true. Reviews makes me happy. 🤣 thank you for those kind words of yours. Be well.