Pedestal of hurt

A Poem by Shimmy

A heartfelt expression of love, loss , and belonging .

I was hurting
Crying and screaming
I was so angry at everyone
I was angry at myself
Why does i always let people in
Why does i always let people hurt me
I always let them in , bring them in
I stand on the same pedestal
On which you left me
I thought maybe you would return
Or even you would glance back
A shimmer of hope i had
I forgot your heart is cruel and there wasn't a place for me in it
There never was, only I was naive
I can't even say I was the raindrop in your ocean of storm
You didn't even gave me that place to call myself a raindrop
I realised too late that I was a nobody
A nobody in your story
A nobody who doesn't even hold that much importance to be written in your book of story
I learnt my lesson to never let anyone be the center and main character of your own story.
I learnt it a hard way
But still my stupid heart deems you
Even after everything
I still look for you
After all this time
I am standing at the same pedestal on which you left me
Maybe this time you will return….