Tangled Hearts Part 1

Chapter 255

Tangled Hearts

Part 1

Everything was back too normal when I opened the door to our cabin on the mountain. It was quiet, and peaceful in a way as the moon shown through the windows being the only light other than a few lights that were left on so we wouldn’t find our selves stumbling in the dark. Rhoda said the moment we took off our shoes, for me to make us a batch of our favorite drink while she runs us a nice hot bath.

Taking my backpack with my chef clothes that needed to be washed and my shoes with her as she made her way down the hall; releasing Sparky as he barked and whined excitedly smelling the doggy bag I had brought home just for him.  He quickly snarfed down the meat pieces licking his lips for more. I opened the door so he could go outside and leaving the dogie door opened, preventing the heat from going outside.

I heard music being turned on down the hall as Rhoda called me said. “My little tiger I am waiting?” In a voice that promised me exactly what I needed. I quickly made the tea as I watched my mother and Chef Philips enter the house with my two sisters and Terry following close behind them as Sparky came rushing back into the house, hoping to get some more of that meat; watching him jump up and down and bark, whining with excitement as each them gave him his treat for being a good dog watching our house. It was safe to say he had put on a few pounds because everyone spoils him here.

Kerry told Jody to take Terry down to her room and run them a bath while she puts the baby in his crib in their room. Kerry and her husband Tom had moved here and had purchased one of the Stringum cabins. Not far from here, but it wasn’t quite ready yet and are hoping it would be done by Thanksgiving or by Christmas at the latest.

Jody and Dave also have moved here, but Dave travels a lot working for Stringum running the day too day operations so Stringum doesn’t have too. He had finally found someone to take over the store in Santaquin and is in the process of selling Stringum’s old home since Jody has decided…. she like Kerry didn’t want to live so far away from her family. So they too are building a cabin on the mountain, since Stringum big house above us won’t be done until the fall of next year.

Yet the heavy snow has made it even harder to build. So Mom and Dad had given her Mrs. Henderson, Kirk's Mom’s room to her since they have been staying with Bishop Sakes and his family. I had overheard them say tonight at dinner that they were considering getting married in the spring of next year. Personally, I could think of a better father for Kirk and his little brother Daren.

Mom and Dad were just making it into the house as I was going down to my room, with the rest of our households like the Vincent and their three boys including Calvin who they had recently adopted. The young Japanese woman Miss, Loretta Drake that was staying with us, will be arriving in about a week before Thanksgiving. She has been hired on as our second housekeeper to help Mrs. Olsen known to us as Dotty; being as we have one of the busiest cabins that house the large families as she makes her way into the heart of the Hornets inside the Satanic Church.

Most the boys here are ours since Mom and Dad have recently adopted five boys, plus Terry and his brother Jessie not forgetting his sister Loren; making her our third sister in our ever-growing family.

Mom and Dad couldn’t let them be split up even though they had agreed that Terry and his brother Jessie would be the last ones they would adopt, but the moment they learned of their sister Loren, it wasn’t a question if she too would be adopted by our family. We all agreed that she too should be apart of our family; if we couldn’t find their parents or if they were too far gone to help. 

Each day that goes by without a single word regarding their whereabouts, means of a less chance in finding them. So far less than half of the boys that Mr. Tate had hidden from us. Parents were either found dead, or they simply didn’t have families being taken or purchased from orphanages. 

The parents we did find were in no condition of raising them. So sad to say the unlucky few indeed up in the system until their parents are able to care for them. Not all them were adopted outright, like the ones we have taken in, but Mom and Dad had taken the most, on the bases that most of their older kids like Kerry and Jody were either married or will be old enough within one or two years to be old enough live on their own. Including me in another couple of years or so, and when Shane comes off his mission he too will be going off to college.

So that only left Shawn Jared, Jason, and Jonathan; yet with Shawn away in boarding school in Texas, that only left my three younger bothers. So in away Mom and Dad had the room and the money now to add more to our family. I could only imagine what Shawn will say when he comes home and finds out unless Mom and Dad have already told him that he now has a new sister, and 7 new brothers all under the age of 14. Plus me, me making number 8 and he and Shane make 9 and 10 with a grand total of 10 brothers 3 sisters making a baker dozens of 13 kids in total.

I gave a quick nod too Terry then disappeared around the corner into my room, leaving the door open so Sparky could come in as well as when Terry and Dad were ready to begin preparing Terry. Neither of us wanted to do it, but we had no choice. If we didn’t do it Mr. Tate would and it wouldn’t be gentle or loving, it would be very painful and very rough. Most people would think sure just turn him into the cops, yet we couldn’t not do it here. Not here in Heber where the satanic church thrived and many of them were on Mr. Tate’s payroll and the satanic church. Not too mention everyone thinks Mr. Tate is a pillar of the community.

Rhoda was waiting for me naked on the bed posing for me, the moment I saw her I was more than a little aroused. Stating once again I wasn’t gay, I very much liked girls a lot. Then again I had thing for boys as well, but it just took more to get me stimulated then naked girl the word they use today when describing me or most of us here and raised as bisexual, where not only do you like the opposite sex like girls, but guys as well and versa when comes to girls liking both. I was taught that there was nothing wrong with liking or having both. At the time I truly believed that and even now if given the option or choice; I would still find the idea intriguing.

The only answer that it is important is how I feel about it and most important leave the outside world out of it. Unfortunately sad to say; I had stopped believing that it was ok to be bisexual and stopped and listened to the world and let them judge me. I ever since regretted that decision, because back then compared to now I was truly happy and truly loved.

Whereas now I am not, and I am completely alone, more so when people close to me like family and friends or the ones that think they know me and find out by reading this bio, of what my life was truly like, some they knew except for my darkest pasts and secrets that held on to knowing how they would judge me for the things I had done, and for things I was taught to do. Whereas they in a sense was never really apart of my life other than seeing them twice year and less even now.

Yet it if they had known, they would have distanced themselves even more. Or shun me because of it, because of their beliefs that things I did was so disgustingly wrong and should be never allowed near them. Everything they believe is almost everything I don’t believe when it comes to regions standpoint, in regards to the LDS faith and standards.

Too me they are nothing more then the people inside their beloved LDS Church where people shun people, they separate them and become ignored and unwelcome. Sad say in a sense they were never really my family after all regardless we carry the same genes or are related by blood.

The true meaning of family is not defined by blood or genetics. The true meaning of family is the people who you love, who stand by through bad and the good times. People that set their personal beliefs aside, regardless of the color of their skin, size and looks; the true meaning of family is endless love for each other. 

The moment I entered the room I smiled at her. “Not fair, you're already naked without me.”

She shrugged her shoulders, said. “I thought we could just start by seeing if you were still into me.”

She made her way over to me and I pulled her into a kiss, said. “When have I not been into my little buttercup?” 

She looked down seeing my bulging package, rubbing it said. “I see that my tiger likes what he sees.” I nodded letting her slowly undress me, as she led me to the awaiting tub, she said. “I promised you a relaxing bath where you are at my mercy, my dear sweet husband.”

The bath was perfect as she bathed me and personally and groomed me to perfection even though Mom had done so the night before. Rhoda was more skilled in many ways compared to Mom as she rode me slowly as I died and went to heaven many times, before Dad and Terry and my adoptive Mom soon joined us with Eli and his wife Jackie.

Dad said. “I hope you guys don’t mind if Terry shared your bed tonight or he could sleep on the pull-out. I haven’t had a moment to figure out the sleeping arrangements with your two sisters taking the last of our spare rooms and having one of our guest's room turned into a bedroom filming studio. Until after Mr. Tate’s party on Saturday where we can move most the sets to that location. That way when Shawn arrives for Thanksgiving; we won’t have Mr. Tate interfering in our lives here.

“Shawn doesn’t know about our little arrangement with Mr. Tate, and Mom and I prefer that he doesn’t know to give him an excuse of violating your guy’s contract. It’s bad enough that we are allowing you boys to have sex in that manner; after we have forbidden Shawn and Arthur from doing so because of the risks we must take to bring down the satanic church. Shawn must not know about that until we are certain that Shawn is really trying to turn his life around. And that he is not rapping any more boys like he and his friends were doing for their own sick reasons.

“He only knows we are working to take them down, but he doesn’t know how we are doing it. If he knew that he would use that against us for what we did to him and Arthur because they would justify it as an excuse as we prefer not to do it, but do it only when it is necessary; like we have to do tonight and tomorrow and anytime we filming Mr. Tate’s pictures. Do we have an agreement, that what we do should remain a secret when Shawn comes home for the Holidays?”

Dad held out his hand to me and we shook on it. He did the same with everyone that was here. He said. “I can’t give it to you in writing because I want you to trust me and Mom when we say. If Shawn violates your contract after we have sat him down and made him sign on the dotted line stating he understands. Even though we have promised you he won’t violate that contract. That if should break that contract. Mom and I will do whatever is necessary if that happens. Which means we will not look the other way the next time he tries to rape you, your brothers or your friends without permission from you or us.

“That it will be grounds for Shawn to go back to the boarding school in Texas and until his 18th birthday; neither I nor Mom could live with the fact that if we sent him to prison he would be killed within a month, just for the fact he broke your contract and for the fact he can’t really rape you. Because you and me all us have been raped many times and been having sex with each other allowing men like Mr. Tate and satanic church do so, so we can put them away for a very long time; even life in prison.

“However I will promise you and everyone here. That if Shawn does rape someone that isn’t a member of the satanic church, and has never been prepared and is nothing more then innocent bystander. Shawn will face the full extent of the law, stating he knew what he was doing, and disregard his signed contract bring in outsider just so he could rape that individual for his own sick reasons. He will face the full extent of the law in which could send him to prison. 

"It is the only promise your Mom and I can make, we understand and are truly sorry that we did not listen to you and your brothers and your two sisters when you first came to us. Instead, we turned a blind eye not wanting to face the fact that Shawn was raping young boys in our neighborhood and his three younger brothers.

“Or the fact that a man of God such as Mr. Crawford was nothing more then devil incarnated and a member of the Satanic Church to infiltrate LDS church and force our beloved members into his beliefs, by blackmail, by drugs and alcohol and other vices to gain control over them. That Mom and I refused to believe that Mr. Crawford was not the man you were telling us he was. Even now we are having a hard time believing that this is just another cooked up scheme by Shawn and the Satanic Church to bring us into the fold or to discover that we are behind taking down their church.

“Mom and I trust Shawn, and his teachers and most of all, his headmaster that tell us that Shawn has turned his life around and wants nothing more than to come home and be part of our family once more and is truly sorry. Mom and I have spoken to Shawn on the phone many times and each time we have talked to him he feels sorry for what he has done. 

"His actions and his grades say he has indeed turned his life around. He’s our flesh and blood; we could have given him up years ago for the crimes he has committed with my father. But instead, we chose to leave the community and take the chance that he was just a victim like I was, that if we left we could put what my father had done behind us. 

“We did not believe that Shawn deserved to be put on trial for the things my father made him and the boys in our community to do or go through the shaming ritual or even put to death. We believed if we took him out of that environment that he would grow up and become something better. 

"We still believe that even though we have punished him and Arthur severally, by performing the shaming ritual that there is a chance that Shawn and Arthur would change their ways. Shawn has been away and he has turned his life around. Even Arthur has moved on and hasn’t touched another boy since Shawn.  It is time we put out our hate, our mistrust and accept the fact that it is a time to heal, time to bring Shawn home and forgive him and allow him to be part of our family once more.

“Yet Shawn must earn that right, and he will be watched around the clock. He will know that this is a second chance to prove to us and to you that he has changed. We are only asking that you give him that second chance. If everything goes well during his stay for the holidays we will consider it as a family in making it permanent and bring him home. 

"It is our hope that everything you have heard is only hearsay and gossip, but if it proves to be true. Mom and I will not look the other way we will take action… and you have our word on it. That if everything proves that we have been misinformed, and Shawn has no desire to change and had been caught red-handed.

“We give you our word, we will not look the other way…but not until Shawn has been given a second chance to prove to us that what we have been told by him, and his teachers and headmaster is nothing more than lie in hopes of bringing into the light we are responsible for the satanic churches being ripped apart from the inside.

“Even though it is true, that we are involved like many others that have taken on this role to bring down these people that have raped and murdered their own children and sacrificed them in the name of their Demon God. Whereas their sister church has given up the practice almost millennia ago, and are a peaceful society that no longer believes in doing these things, and has been a great help in locating those that have.  It would not be wise to inform Shawn that we are indeed responsible in some way of working against the satanic church.

“Far as Shawn knows we have joined his church and are actively bringing in the LDS church members into the light. He doesn’t know the truth that we are doing the opposite by taking satanic members out of the church, and those that are responsible for the crimes, rape, and murder. Buying and selling of children and molesting them like our own Mr. Tate and many hard crimes that will put them in prison for a very long time.

“They can only hide behind the excuse that they were taught since the time they were born that this how things are supposed to happen. That what we are about to do to Terry tonight is wrong, it disgusts me; but like Terry and his brother and possibly his sister have no choice that they either do so or they will endanger their very lives and ours now that we have adopted them into our family.

“I say again Shawn must not know that we look the other way when others like ours selves are asked to commit these crimes. That there is a right way and a more gentler way of doing what must be done to save our lives. We do not have to do so using animalistic behavior like Mr. Tate and his friends have been doing. We do this out of love; we do this because we have too, not because we want to. We do it because we must… and if we must we do so, and we do so we do it our way. Not Mr. Tate and his animal’s way.

“So lets us remember that we do this because we know that in the end, these sick men that rape and murder are coming to an end.” Dad had Terry get into position; he only looked at me and gave me his consent. I felt the weight on my shoulders grow even heavier as I was about to become the monster once more.