already dead

He knocked once
He knocked twice
Yes death is knocking on my door
You killed me once
You killed me twice
You cant kill me anymore

You said that youd be there for me
You said youd always care for me
Lift me up when I am down
But you left me lying on the floor
Where in my own blood and tears Id drown

Who is responsible for my death?
Was it you or was it me?
I know I took my own life
But you killed me emotionally

What was the point of my dead body
Walking alongside the living?
The darkness that consumed my soul
Was cold and unforgiving

I trusted you yet you didnt trust me back
You drove me to the point that Id crack
Snide remarks and cruel retorts
Made me think suicidal thoughts

I know you thought nothing of what you did
Didnt care for the secrets that I hid
I know that you didnt really do that much
Just petit insults and of such
But there is just one thing you should have known
It hurts ten times worse when youre alone

I raised the gun to my head
But I didnt die then, I was already dead