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I've been waiting, so trapped inside
Bound by the twisting of thousands of vines
For years I was strangled, enduring the harms
Until I found the my true freedom entwined in your arms
And it's the last day I'll live so lost in myself
The moment I've finally stopped screaming for help
I could see myself falling, yet I don't feel scared
Romance, I think, is nothing to fear
And it feels as if there's no existance of pain
I could dance for days in the pouring rain
I could lay here forever with you inside
Found my salvation in almond eyes
The smile I'm wearing is telling no lies
For I've found the true meaning in almond eyes
Sliding through the surface in the stillness of night
My lips sewn shut, needles punctured through skin
To refrain me from shouting as I found myself drowning
But I couldn't stop taking you in
Twisted and binded by thousands of threads
Immersed, I'm indulging in you
It just takes a glance and I'm deep in my trance
Floating through this world that I never knew
Green-eyed demon, hypnotize
Dark-haired angel, mesmerized
In your arms tonight I die
A little girl no more am I
As I lay there, paralyzed
Frozen by your demon eyes
Now I can't see too clearly
Have you sewn shut my eyes?
Are you blinding me, breaking me, killing my sight?
I wished you'd destroy me
I wished you'd let me burn
But you unleashed me before I died
Left me ravenous, aching for this bitter poison you fed me
Or wanting the world I'd left behind
Green-eyed demon, hypnotize
Dark-haired angel, mesmerized
In your arms tonight I die
Little girl no more am I
As I lay there, paralyzed
Frozen by your demon eyes
I know I don't need you, but I still wish to dwell
Your hell is my heaven, your heaven my hell
Oh dear, you still don't know what you made me do
But perhaps it was me that hypnotized you

A heavenly voice beneath chestnut curtains
Guided by an artist's hand
She's everything I should have been
She passes by my longing stare
She's everything I could have been
In silence she tells me
The years I've thrown away
All those months I spent drowning
I have yet to find the way
I want to lock her in a box
I want her beauty to be mine
To keep her by me every day
She's a perfect goddess
She's a princess
A doll of porceline
She's everything I should have been
Is it possible to feel
This way? Both envy, love within?
She's everything I could have been
She's proof my soul hasn't emerged
She's everything, I swear she's winged
But mine I've yet to earn
It's a twisted, funny thing
It's schizophrenic, ever-changing
An insecure chameleon
Falling at your feet in life-saving wings
Or sometimes wearing a black robe,
Carrying a sickle
Sick enough to conjure its evil twin
Hate
Contradicting, tying minds into knots
There are many fields...
But here we have it!
In its purest, simplist, most beautiful form!
Hit me like a speeding train
The time I least expected it
(It loves to play tricks on us)
I tremble inside
And my mind races for a thousand miles
Looking into your eyes
It stops, it faints
It shouts a thousand words to my mouth
But my lips are always stubborn
And the very best I can do
Is bury myself
And whisper
"I love you"
Slowly start we are not distraught
Tossing through wave after wave
On and on til I die in your arms and
Am forever begging to stay
Invisibly light your enshadowed face
Dont ever you tread much too far
For we are one part all alone in the dark
Forsaking but one single star
Pull me down through this wonderful torture
This endless abyss made out of your hands
Circulation inspired your breath becomes fire
It's more than I could ever stand
Speaking softly without any words
With my fingers entwined in your hair
I could linger for hours in this bed of crushed flowers
Knowing you'll always be there
The nighttime air becomes even thicker
Scattering raindrops that fill up my mind
And the birds finally sing as I open my wings
And let myself fall from the sky
A small part of myself fades away
As forever you free me of all my despair
We're nearing the end of this midnight crescendo
I'll let you know as soon as I'm there
Your voice drives me to the moment where
I've collapsed straight into your eyes
I escape a small gasp as you still have me clasped
And still we move on with the tide
He burst into her life like the light of ten million stars
He warmed her heart with his smile and beckoned her
Into his arms
Everyday, he whispered
Everyday we'll be
Everyday we'll be together
You're the missing part of me
Their lips locked in eternity
She's turning into him, transforming slowly
The chameleon
But it's all fine, all grand says she
So long as she can run to him
But there's a river forced between them
The curse she stumbled on that day
She gazed past her side of the river
To see his back is turned away
With the flowers growing from her bed
The river's flowing from his head
They slept together, sang together
She clings until the end
And the fire's always burning, the fire never dies
As the final shards of wishful thinking fall beyond their grasp
She sits she cries as the last rose dies...
He's triggered into freezing, for he no longer pours
The sky grows ever darker as the thunderclouds form
She is made of liquid, it's the girl's turn to pour
Arms flung in deep desp'ration, she shouts through her storm
"So long
Too long
I'd linger there
Lost in my lover's jet black hair
He's handsome and tall enough for me
He's the color of sand caressed by the sea
With his soft warm hands and loving arms
And syrupy words and witty charm
Within that presence, my world was born
But the presence he gave me is now forlorn
It turns to stone now what he says
His arms are growing cold and dead
His words now pierce me through my breast
The way he now impales my chest
I still know how lovely my heart had sung-
The taste of silver on my tongue
The depth behind his loving stare
The scent of silver in the air
How could he let that go to waste?
When I've grown so accustomed to the taste
When all I imagine is being with him
In holding him, absorbing him
And pretending he was never gone
Like the day he finally came home
With love and pain from Vietnam"
And though she is battered by the falling of ice
She stands firm as the melted drops cradle her
He's always in the distance
This she remembers
Far away but never out of reach
And despite the burning of silence
Unspoken words held back in defiance
There was one thing she always knew
Buried in the back of her mind
"It's never too late."
The time has come again to wait
Standing alone until the ninth numbered day
It's his move to prove it's not in vain
After days of useless pain
No longer is he so far away
She always knew what it would become
"I've always known how it would be
This soul forged from fire and ice
Is dissolving over me
My love, my heart from Vietnam
I may still be your Aztec Sun
For night is decaying
And hope never dies
Clearer and clearer are growing the skies
I know what I've done, all that I said
And how many times you took me to bed
And as I waited in the rain
I know you've been standing in the flames
But there lies something we both may need
And I'd never let it go to waste."
Love runs deep throughout their veins
And it cannot be destroyed
Not now
Not ever
We can withstand all rain together
May we always be clasped forever
And may the river where you drowned be swallowed in the light
Of the one you love
Roll the dice
Take a chance
Roll the dice
What will I find?
Here gambling in the garden with the Mad Hatter
In my little world of white rabbits
But in the world full of streetlamps, streets, and stress
There is a little brown rabbit waiting for me
Gamble my chances, do I dare?
To kill off the queen for this little rabbit?
Then I remember the queen is fat and means nothing to me anyway
So I must turn away to be with this little rabbit
And say goodbye to the Mad Hatter
I won't be needing tea anymore
Just let me have the drink that makes me larger
So I'm the right size
When I return home