Scared

Tonsillitis has cleared up but there is still a very painful sore throat to deal with... It's kind of centered in one spot and reminded me of what my grandpa used to tell me about smoking making lumps form in your thoat... Since I was up anyway I decided

I am scared

It wasn't supposed to be like this

How could this happen to me

I know I ignored all the warnings

But I am so young

 

I am scared

It was just a little illness

It wasn't supposed to be life threatening

Why didn't it just clear up

Like they said it would

 

I am scared

Everytime I swallow

I feel like I am swallowing toxins

Like just knowing

Is going to speed it up

 

I am scared

I can't tell anyone

All they will say is I told you so

I don't need to hear that right now

I need to hear how to make it better

 

But I'm Scared

That I'll never see my next birthday

That I will never see the world

That I will never be happy

Because I took that away from myself

 

I'm so scared

Scared to see the doctor

Scared to have it confirmed

They think I am paranoid

But I am not I know

 

I am scared

It's like I am swallowing a marble

Thats not natural

I don't know what to do

I am not a hypocondriac

 

I'm Just Scared

Author's Note

I am doing alot of don't rate this' lately makes me wonder am I just being paranoid... this poem is about my paranoia at a simple sore throat that won't go away... lol... I am paranoid...