The Thing That Remains

the thing that remains

beside your ring

a perfect pitch walks the skin

pursues kept emotion

crouching, advancing, staying alive

climbing the high dive

barred from the top pier

hammered wings flutter

a caged tiger paces the floor

higher ground is one room over

still a step down is the lure

regrets keep the watch on forever

every shut of the door a betrayal

beyond sight leads to denial

hoping away and all the while

missing the idea

mile upon mile

hand on the dial

switching the channel

the nick of time to enamored

another color ready to dazzle

bliss knows no secret

still the smallest impair

tight against the inner ear

that is your fear

thread and woven to follow

the forged end of a needle

keeping a clock down to the chime

trapped in the sound of a whisper

beneath the threshold of a promise

quickly measured for sacrifice

sorrow swings a rope despite

the subtle slip of a knife

a seamless wreckage haste

night becomes today

and the thing that remains

Terry D’Arcy-Ryan

Author's Note

This one is very personal I live with PTSD and borderline personalty disorder. I am in a relationship with a wonderful man who sees the behaviour for what it is. Under too much pressure I can become very paranoid. This can lead to true to imagined feelings of abandonment and rejection. The thing that remains covers the emotions that keep me here with love and exhibit the behavior that has me seeing betrayal in every action. He has not cheated but I still feel as a woman scorned. "every shut of the door a betrayal." If your still reading thank you and God Bless

Reviews

[Edizen]

The moment I read the first two lines I thought divorce lol, a lot of hope, expectations, and patience expressed in this poem, then there seems to have been the betrayal. This poem in my personal opinion, fits perfectly the description of a cheating spouse.
Love it though

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

This one is very personal and just as you describe however I live with PTSD and borderline personalty disorder. The relationship I am in now is good, he is tolerant and sees the behavior for what it is. When under pressure I can become very paranoid. The thing that remains covers the emotions that keep me here with love and exhibit the behavior in seeing betrayal for every action. He has not cheated but I still feel as a woman scorned. "every shut of the door a betrayal" thank you for the detailed review

Sheer Terror

[Edizen]

i'm sorry to hear that, but you seem to be doing pretty well for yourself in living with those and you make really wonderful poems for it so.... keep on doing what you're doing. :)

[Nipplegrinder]

This is immensely kaleidoscopic, for the subject matter. So very well done.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

I am always happy to see your review. Thank you

Sheer Terror

[sette]

it is one beautiful writing. very poignant

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Sette, I am happy you enjoyed this. Thank you

Sheer Terror

[Carson Kramer]

This is really well wrought. I must admit, I would have been helped by some punctuation or capitalization, but I'm dense sometimes. I especially enjoyed the last ten lines. The build was lovely.

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Carson Kramer, I appreciate beautiful review. I am not sure about punctuation I arrange with syllables for pauses and strong words for imagery.
Thank you for taking the time to read and review.

Sheer Terror

[Pete]

cool title and pic. we all have regrets and hold onto different things. afraid to go down paths again and dredge up the past but we always have memories and pieces of it that live on in us. you always pack a lot into your words. not one of my favorites of yours but strong as usual ... :)

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Pete, yes this one moves a bit precocious but its all about the emotions. Thank you for another great review

Sheer Terror

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

The pics are the same view one is through chain link one has nothing to obscure it. One moment its clear and the next it is dark and oppressive.
I see it both ways. I appreciate your reviews thank you Pete.

[Weeping willow]

Wonderfully expressed, to inspire other poets. Words flow well to express your feelings ;-]

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Weepingwillow, you always get it. Thank you for the review.

Sheer Terror

[wordman]

i guess we all miss someone or something,touching write

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

wordman, much thanks for the review.

[wordman]

you`re welcome