MAGNAVOX SURVEILLANCE

         

I know    

I tell you this instant

I am under surveillance  

my life is being recorded indefinite

every movement

private or ordinary

including this moment

every event

big or insignificant

without my consent

there is no instant

when i am alone

only deep thoughts I no longer own

I am sure

I feel their stare

Every hour they dare

can't you hear

the transmissions and communication

that high supersonic pollution

sending a command to their camera the observer

sometimes it’s fear and sometimes it’s somewhere further

can't you hear them, their inside the interior

I cannot explain

tell you when it came

how I missed them inside

you now they always hide

what is sharp and clear

the camera they put in here

right there in the Magnavox television

an ordinary TV became their mission

of course it still works with normal precision

no matter the action I take

it is now an unbreakable state

WHAT DID YOU SAY?

don’t look at me in that STUPID way

you can’t conceive why

I won't just leave and be free

as much as I hate the show they see

I would rearrange the furniture down to the mantel

spin the wheel

change the channel

the front door is not possible

the problems that it will intele

outside, your crazy it's just short of suicidal

don’t you understand they are watching ever

each and every intention

the choice of direction

to plan and abandon

a walk out the door would terrorize

seen by all the eyes

the eyes in the sky

   you can't deny the satellites

catching everything like it's their right

dictating my escape day and night

a camera pointed directly at My front door

don't get me started on the store’s

once the night is in its darkest hour

I pack to leave regardless their power

I picture the walk out no longer the coward

that is what all the plans are for

I must make it out all my thought’s implore

I extend my hand and keep my eyes on the floor

holding the knob I begin the chore

then

as if it were a signal

yes!! a secret signal

something Tucked deep inside to conceal

a dangerous secret

like the man in the shadows wearing the blackest hat

he conceals all the private things from my closet

the phone rings before I even see the welcome mat

on a stunned level

It's always the same devil

I am obliged to acknowledge the scoundrel

we are immersed in his timing

an old move that is still so very cunning

a silence oh so staggering

fear disorienting

they are listening

pick up the phone

ignoring the radio source  

a land line of course

never touch a cellular they are the worst

the G P S will never let you go

cashiers at all the supermarkets will have a window

strange ladies at the grocer

are calling me by the name only I know

frozen with fear

the Receiver is on my ear

there is no one there

it's always the same dreaded silence

the attempt to scare me in alliance

they listening for every performance

I know

it's them again

in here and on the other end

I am telling you I know and it's evident

they are recording my every movement

I am under surveillance

  I know

  Terry D’Arcy-Ryan

Author's Note

People with borderline personality disorder experience paranoia or paranoid thinking under conditions of stress. The borderline mind experience the most stress when experiencing real or imagined abandonment, dissociating to the point of being delusional. If you are still reading, Thank you and God Bless

Reviews

[Re-Pete]

this is very cool & creative and i truly enjoyed it. we live in the technology age and 'big brother' is watching'. there is a price to be paid for everything. they don't call it "the b**b tube" for nothing. our culture tries to control us. you have a great satirical commentary here. it really is just like a drug - most people can''t go without it now, like coffee. we think we're doing the watching but they're watching us & turning us into drones. great job! :)

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you Pete I always appreciate your in depth review. I am thrilled you get it. It's very tough to not become paranoid. You rock!

Sheer Terror

[Davidgeo]

Given the length it's pretty impressive that you kept to a pretty disciplined structure/flow. I didn't get bored at all.

On the intellectual content... every borderline mind is different. Not all of them are delusional or paranoid to the point of self destruction, in fact most are quite functional. They're just usually tremendous a******s with the disposition of an emotional vampire. More than a few would say that their personality disorder is what drives them to extreme compartmentalized excellence.

If you were somehow allowed to honestly psychologically profile the most powerful people in the world I'd wager you'd find a shockingly large amount of personality disorders on average. The most successful people are usually far from being normal and usually for good reason. I believe there is a healthy way to handle even very severe personality disorders if one has the discipline and drive to do so. (and of course, regular crazy people who lack drive, discipline, and originality can just go f**k themselves immediately)

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

That is one impressive understanding of the borderline mind you got there. I love the reference to the emotional vampire. This borderlline is PTSD as well. Change is evil, we seem to be lacking that go with the flow thing everyone else has, never say good morning, just smile while were pushing down the need to say go f**k yourself to anyone overly happy, but we are suspicious of everyone so everybody can go f**k themselves. Hey, thank you for the review and I really enjoyed your explanation of borders.

Sheer Terror

[Paul Bell]

In a way, you're not paranoid.
Every day some camara will pick you up.
This can be both good and bad.
But it's the age we live in now.
Think some guy wrote a book about it years ago.

[siobhan]

Really really good. This one reminds me of how when I was diagnosed with psychosis, I turned my phone off and had no contact with the outside world. I didn't want to talk, or eat. Brilliant :-)

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Right, life is easier without the outside world. After I wrote this I was even surprised. I felt great to share with the world that I do not like the ladies at the grocery using my government name.
Thank you so much for the Review
Sheer Terror

[siobhan]

No worries! You keep going,

Siobhan

[Indra's Child]

F**k yeah, man! This is awesome dude!

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSheerTerror]

Thank you i am glad you enjoyed it.

Sheer Terror

[Alao Taiwo]

too much inspiration murdered you on a stage that should be yours. you should own the stage...but you bestowed much power to 'them'. 'magnavox surveillance' is good. i like it. see below a draft...just trying to suffocate the inspiration so something victorious can emerge. Only you can perfect it


I know I tell you this instant
I am under surveillance
My life is being recorded indefinite
Every movement
Private or ordinary
Big or insignificant
Without my consent

There is no instant
When i am alone
Only deep thoughts I no longer own
Transmissions and communication
That high supersonic pollution
Sends a command to their camera the observer
Right there in the magnavox television
An ordinary tv became their mission

No matter what action I take
It’s now in an unbreakable state
I am seen by all the eyes
The eyes in the sky
And can't deny
the satellites

… (re-write something about the door)…

I pick up the phone ignoring the radio source
But a landline of course
Never touch a cellular they are the worst
The G P S will never let you go
Cashiers at all the supermarkets will have a window
Strange ladies at the grocer will be calling me by the name only I know
frozen with fear
The Receiver is on my ear
There is no one there
it's always the same dreaded silence
The attempt to scare me in alliance
I know, it's them again
In here and on the other end
I am telling you I know and it's evident
They are recording my every movement
I am under surveillance
I know

[TheUnrulyWriter]

I've had a lot of thoughts like this lately because I recently wrote an essay about personal privacy. I knew that we were all being surveillanced to a point, but my research really opened my eyes to the severity. It can be hard to feel okay being myself when I know that my every move is being saved to some weird file in a heavily guarded government building :/

[heartspeaks]

Its too good. But as per the topic it's not satirical. But, let me tell you something , its much better than that. It's THRILL and CLIFF HANGER... amazing work . Keep it up.

[ern]

I love this. It was written so amazingly and made me think.

[Omikron]

One of the best verbalized versions of paranoia I've ever seen. I got pretty paranoid myself from reading this...meaning it's an amazing write, skillfully written.

Thank you for sharing.

// O