Should I Let You See

Wrote last night about abuse

Thinking back on all those years,
All the pain you put me through.
Now I’m down with the fears,
And you don’t know what to do.

 

Tonight you’ll come back,
And more my heart will fade.
Please just cut me some slack,
Look at these scars you’ve made.

My body entirely abused,
Can’t get back up again.
Even my heart is bruised,
What happened to your love back then?

 

Running to my room,

Crawling under my bed.
Under the door, your shadow does loom,
And your love is completely dead.

 

Why should I keep trying?
Why should I go on?
My life is constant lying,
Fighting for the dawn.

I don’t understand,
What I have done,
It always hurt when I land,
After the abuse has begun.

But with this painted grin,
I'll tuck it all away,
Won’t let them know you always win,
And I'll pretend it’s all okay.

Store the pain all away in my heart,
But would it set me free?
Only when I’m alone, can I really fall apart.
Should I let you see?

All these thoughts invade,
Should I continue this fight?
Choices are made,
When my body reacts in fright.