PART ONE - ETERNAL ROMANCE

I'm sad....

Why?

Because the man I love is engaged....

He’ll marry his girlfriend soon...

It hurts!

So damn hurt....

I've been in love with him for over five long years now...

It just that……

It's a big secret....

Oh...

It's not just big...

It's huge and massive....

An infatuation to someone who's out of reach…

 

Why?!

 

He has to be that far....

So far away that I couldn't reach....

An inch in front of me...

But a milestone away in reality...

 

Not fair…

 

I really hate this!

And yet it exists....

 

Inequality in life's fortune….

Worse destiny…

I will be forever alone....

With your written hidden memories...

 

If only I can be a moon or stars….

Forming constellations you used to stare every night…

 

Or an Audrey Hepburn, Selena, Princess Diane or even Whitney Houston’s reincarnations….

 

Will you turn your head for me?

Or just stuck in your notes and pen with your round-rimmed glasses…

 

Are you deaf?

Blind?

Stupid?

 

Or I'm the one who's stupid…

Why do we meet each other?

When you belong to someone else…

 

Is there anything left for me?

 

Should l just die?

 

And wait to be reborn...

In a much better place…

 

I hate myself....

Cause I'm here.....

 

Waiting in vain…

Waiting.....

With nonsense thoughts....

 

Should I just end this?

 

Frustrating....

Humiliating.....                           

Disgusting.....

Part of me?!

 

And just kill myself!

 

I hate myself.....

Because I love you.....

 

I want you....

I dreamt of you.....

 

But you're not for me....

Your eyes....

Your lips....

Your ears....

Your heart.....

Your mind.....

Your soul.....

Belong to someone else......

 

You're the love of my life....

But deserted me....

Leave me in pain....

 

Should I just end it?

 

Will you at least care for me?

 

My dream husband.....

My dream lover.....

My dream man.....

 

I've always wanted you.....

 

Every night.....

Every single moment of my life....

But you belong to someone else....

 

Why her Ian?

 

I'm just here beside you.....

All you got to do is ask...

 

Thought I was born to tell you I love you.....

 

To make you mine....

And stay with me all night...

 

I'm so tired to be alone!

 

Lonely.....

Cold.....

 

I need to have you!

 

I know it just started as a joke....

But I didn't thought it will end it like this....

 

Hurting myself....

 

Because I didn't say the things....

I have to say.......

For the first time in my life....

 

I FELL IN LOVE!

 

But with the wrong person.....

Wrong time.....

Wrong place.....

 

I got nothing…

 

NOTHING WITHOUT YOU!

 

Just a broken.....

Rejected.....

Deserted.....

Feelings......

 

I hope to finally die......

And starts a new life......

 

With you.....

 

Eternally.

 

Your Stalker

 

 

 

****

 

This was a letter written for my fiancé, Christian, I'm Jade by the way,

I'm supposed to get marry by next month.

But something strange happened.

After Christian received this letter....

He’s body fell down and got sick.... he was a doctor, an Anesthesiologist.

But in spite of it Christian can't help himself that he had been admitted at the hospital for two weeks

And transferred at the ICU after three days.

Then......

He died.

Suffering from multiple organ failure.

I found out that the Stalker written was he’s true love…

 

ERIS.

 

That night she dropped by our office handing a letter to him.

She cried....

Unexpected.....

In front of him while congratulating us.

 

And yet the next day in mid-dawn...

Christian was told that she committed suicide...

We rush to her house, since I was a nurse while he was a doctor…

I can see how much Christian wants to revived her....

 

No pulse.....

No heartbeat....

Lifeless, to be precise...

 

Christian holds her tight.....

Touched her.....

Stroked her face in pain...

And then I was shocked seeing him....         

Kissed her on lips....

And whispered the words....

That gave me goose bumps....

 

I love you......

 

I'm sorry.......

 

Is this some kinda’ joke?!

 

After Eris was buried, Christian didn't talk to me no matter how much I insist…

Then he locked himself in his room....

No foods...

No drinks...

No reason to live.....

 

But now as I was sitting here in his room....

Reminiscing about our past...

I found out that the man I loved was not for me....

As I was reading this letter....

 

 

Jade,

 

I'm sorry....

I know that my decision to marry you soon was quick enough to not tell you the truth about my condition...

Four years ago I was diagnosed with leukemia...

It was not severe at that moment, I can be cure with medications but still my doctor advice me to be very careful at all times...

I did my best to survive but my condition get worse that I decided to make a distance between the woman...

I secretly love...

Adore....

Cherish....

 

She’s Eris.....

 

My true love.....

My inspiration....

My dream.....

My life.....

Eris means everything to me....

I was about to court her.....                    

But knowing that sooner or later I would die...

I back-out......

After having a wonderful night with her that was actually an accident because she's drunk....

I abandoned her.....

Thinking that she'd better forget about me in such a way that she almost hated me....

It was so painful....

The agony of neglecting the one I love....

Was such a sacrifice....

 

And then you came.....

That’s the reason why I turned to you....

Sounds selfish though....

But I know that my father will make you understand it all...

I want Eris to live a life with a happy family...

Without me....

Without a single part of me....

I thought that marrying you will convince her to choose the man she loves....

The one she's been always telling me, that get me jealous at all times....

But I was a fool....

Having doubts that...

 

IT WAS ME!

 

I doubted that she’ll love me the way I love her!

Her death was so painful for me....

 

It shouldn't happen!

 

I was the one who's dying....

But I just let the one I love died right over my eyes...

I'm a doctor....

But I didn't do anything!

 

Eris died....

 

Without telling me how she truly feels about me!

Without knowing that my feelings are merely mutual!

Without giving us time to share the love that was meant for us!

 

However.....

I could feel that I will die soon.....

I can sense it now.....

 

And I was very excited.....

I can't wait to see her again.....

 

My Eris.....

My love....

My eternal love.....

 

 

Goodbye Jade,

Christian.

 

 

 

I cried, as I read his name.

I felt betrayed but at the same time...

Guilty.....

And yet innocent.....

I will never forget this love story...

And hope it won't happen to me...

 

 

Goodbye...

Christian....

 

Goodbye...

Eris.....

 

Goodbye to the both of you....

Hope you both find your way...

In a place where the two of you...

Are supposed to be together....

 

ETERNAL.

 

The end?

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Anonymous]

Beautiful. Very interesting and sad story. I like it. The only reason why I rated it 99 and not a 100 is for a few typographical errors but besides that, it was great.