State of Pain

one of my darker days

I feel this dark feeling
its inside peeling
back my soul
It's like i am losing control.
It's this confused state of being.
Like my eyes are bleeding.
So i jut stop seeing,
everything around me.
It's so hard these days to be free.
It's that emotional pain,
That keeps our body a cage.
Feeling happy is actually something i hate,
because i know sooner or later it will all be taken away.
Now that may be stupid, or selfish.
But i am not going to be the one who fell for it.
No not me, not anymore
I am sick and tired of feeling so torn!
But i am not complaining,
my life is not something i am failing.
I just want more to understand,
that pain will always be my best friend.
Ya'll have a life as a lie
i dont mean to pry,
but you cant tell me you havnt had pain
dont even try to be so vain.
Some more than others
but as long as we have our sisters and brothers..
We will have someone to fall back on
do you hear where i am coming from?
Life is so short anyway
why not now deal the pain away?