Acceptance

I'm screaming at all I hold dear 
Watching my stars disappear from the sky 
While holding brushes of black paint in each hand 
Wondering why I can't rekindle the light. 
Growing so cold in the presence of apparent love 
I am more willing to accept hatred 
Than the uncertainty of companionship. 
Another night to kiss the sky 

And softly tell ears too distant to hear "sleep well" 

While putting my arm across a vacant mattress 
With tears which hold no loving reflection
Simply resting undisturbed beneath me 
An absence of steady breaths at either side 
My love would sleep in solitude 
A solitude I confine us both to 
We'll beg for chances from one another 
But nothing can give us both that chance 
How do we know when to accept the ending 
When with every second I miss them more 
And with every second they have claimed the same 
Yet when together there is so little 
Clinging onto the memories of a joy we once shared 
Desperately wishing it had never been..