F**k It I'm Not Worth Trying

He looks at me with radiance...
In such mesmerism that I can't bare to look at him...
How long has he been staring at me this way?
Piercing my soul...
Causing me to go cold...
Not warm f**k being warm...
Who is ever warm anymore?
A heart throb...
It's just a disease I have...
What you didn't know?
Thought my heart raced for you?
No it does this all the time...
Your fingers gliding down my flushed cheeks...
His words whispered into the air...
The first thing to roll off his tongue...
I love you...
I already knew this idiot...
Stop saying nonsense...
Those words are as empty as my heart...
Despite the fact it's fluttering like a bird...
Again don't be deceived...
The first words the fall from my lips...
Coming closer to his whispering so gently...
Almost passing the words into his mouth as a gentle kiss...
Wondering if he's thinking of our tongues rolling together...
But no I do not kiss him...
What I say instead...
F**k it I'm not worth trying...