Where was I?

Where was I when the rockets came and carried you away?
Where was I when you left?
Where was I when you drowned in your tears?
Where was I when the blood flowed from your skin?
Like scarlet flowers looking at the floor...
I promised to never let you go...
I promised that one day we would be together.
So where was I?
Where was I when you cried out in pain?
Where was I when your feelings were torn to shreds?
Where was I when I laughed in your face?
No where to be seen...
Like mist in the night...
No where to be heard...
Your words fall on deaf ears...
No where to be felt...
Numb to all that is around you...
Nothing but a ghost...
Is what you were...
Is what you are...
I know it hurts now but one day...
You might find the loneliness...
Quite...
Tasteful.
One day you might look to me and say...
Thank you for showing me the way to isolation...
But when the day comes I might actually want you...
I might actually...
Want to be yours...
I've created another me...
I've created...
A monster...
A monster that can only spread hatred...
A monster that will eat through the very being of life...
Someone who is nothing to us all...
Yet somehow gets under our skin...
How can we let it get out though...?
So where was I?
No where...
Not in my right mind...
I couldn't stop you...
I wanted to...
But how can I?
When I am the other part of your mind...
But I wasn't there to help you through...
I abandoned you...
Like everyone else in the world...
I'm so...
Sorry but this also your fault...
You should of called on me when you had the chance...
But tis all over...
Kiss your sorry life goodbye.