A weary heart

Something I wrote after my ex told me again how depressed he was without me. I moved on sometimes I wish he would too.

Something that makes me want to cry
stop lying
I will too
too much anxiety
too much depression
please just lay me to rest
I am done with it
he cries out to me
and he doesn't understand
I cry in silence
behind smiles and laughter
So don't look at me funny
stop worrying about everything
stop worrying about me
live in the present
I am not a damsel in distress
I am not broken
I am fine
The more you worry
the more you think you are pushing me away
the more I believe that is true
you make it sound like I hate you
but I do not
so stop it with the nonsense
stop worrying about it
it hurts...
You don't know it
but it does
it hurts...
And I am sorry for everything I suppose...
Sorry...
That you even met me
without me you would be happy...
Or at least ok...
Sorry...
Whether you accept it or not
and here I go
being the girl again
with the fake smiles and laughter
and with mostly fake friends...