About me

Just a poem about myself from a long time ago. Im a fan of hidden messages so look for poetry inside my poems.

A creeping cold envelops my Soul leaving me with nohing to feel...
This happiness has left me with a deep self hatred and loathing for who I am,
and what Ive become...
I didnt use to be liike this you know, once I was a happy guy.
Living my Life and enjoying every minute. 
But now? I wish I wasnt here.
I dont know why I am where I am or how I got here but I just want out. 
To be able to leave this shell of flesh and desire behind...
To be alone...
I hurt,
I bleed,
inside I die...ever s slowly.
I crawl from my Demons
who stalk me inside my mind
I cannot escape
Crying in my corner as I bleed onto the floor
the pool continues to grow
a blood flow unceasing...
Filling that cavernous empty space that was once my Heart.
That once beheld Laugter, Joy, and Peace but now only echoes my Sorrows...
Gladly I die, drowning as what once gave me life, drowns out my tears...
Choking on my tears...
Impaled by my fears...
I want ONLY to not hurt anymore...
WHY!!!
MUST MY HEART BLEED SO PROFUSELY?!?!
MUST MY FAMILY SUFFER?!?!
MUST I BE UNABLE TO HELP THEM?!?!
WHY MUST I BE SO USELESS!!!
India
Juliet Uniform Siera Tango
Whiskey Alpha November Tango
Tango Oscar
Delta India Echo...
Figure that out if you will 
Figure that out if you must 
House Jacob M. PFC United States Army 
The sun rose upon his Life one day full of fate, January 12th 1990
but he hopes it does not set too soon or too late...
Bt that his life should end at EXACTLY the right time.
and by his death everyone he hurt, everyone who cared that he pushed away...
Would see his death and be satisfied...
I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY AND FIGHT AND DIE AND BLEED AND YELL AND DESTROY AND BURN EVERYTHING I WAS, EVERYTHING I AM, ANYTHING I EVER WILL BE!!!
Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo
Mike Yankee
Lima India Foxtrot Echo...
Kilo India Lima Lima
Mike Echo 
November Oscar Whiskey...
Lima Echo Tango 
Mike Echo 
Romeo Oscar Tango...

Author's Note

This is an older piece, probably a couple years or so. I figure its the best one to introdue myself to the site