Crying

Why is it ,
I can only let loose and cry ,
when no one is near ?

And even so ,
I keep quite ,
but I just want to be able ,
to break down and cry in someone's arms .

Why can't I trust myself  ,
to break down in someones arms .

And why is it ,
the only guy I've done that to ,
has used me ?

What did I do wrong ?
Why do I always trust the wrong people ?
Why can't I just stay sane for a little bit ?

Why am I so stupid ?
To fall for his tricks ?
Again and again ,
I fall into a trap .

So Now ,
I'm being used again ,
for sex again ,
and people wonder ,
why I think my body is an object ,
for other people .

So I'll continue to cry alone ,
And let others not know my pain ,
I'll wipe away the tears ,
and wear my phony smile .
Again .

Reviews

[Kate Hunter]

very descriptive and true. I often feel the same about the men I've known, though maybe not to that degree. well done. keep it up.

[Kaylor Mason]

I've worn many phony smiles--even nearly fooled myself once. They never really work

[Crow]

To breakdown in someones arms, is a difficult thing to do, certainly a matter of trust. Perhaps not a matter of trusting one's self, but for trusting another. Life seems to be a process for learning to trust again, to overcome the simplicity of being alone. As we grow, we grow wiser.

Ok, I seem to be ranting here...I thing you did a wonderful job of expressing your inner self.