Reuniting with the Blade

Meh, bored

Wow.
I never realized,
how easy it was,
to slide this smile,
onto my face,
when all I really want,
is to let my tears glide freely,
down my reddening cheeks.

It's strange though,
I can't seem to let my mask slip,
even a little bit,
for people to see through,
at least not in person.

Right now,
All I want,
is to open my heart,
open my eyes,
let the tears flow freely,
just for the hell of it,
because I have no reason to be sad,
other than the fact,
that my friend is dating my ex,
her ex brought it up to me today,
and yesterday I found out a guy I online dated,
for eight months,
is fake.

So go ahead,
let me smile,
but ever tear that misses my eye,
will come through my wrist,
for when I cry,
without using my eyes,
it's bloodier than ever,
because the longer I go without,
my best friend the blade,
the worse I do it when we reunite.