I wish I were dead.

My exact emotions at this moment.

I ruined my life,
by being me,
Now I see,
That if I'm truthful,
I'm awful,
an awful girl.

No one deserves the pain I bring,
the hurt I carry,
the empty look,
in my eyes,
brought on,
by the empty heart,
in my shattered chest.

I'm sure that tonight I'll die,
and if not,
I'll awaken,
disappointed,
that once again.
over 25 pills,
didn't end this pitiful thing,
I call a life.

Take my pain away with a bullet,
in my brain,
a thousand pills,
floating in my system,
or even blood loss.

The pain I give,
will be taken away,
for dead,
I can't hurt anyone,
any longer.

Reviews

[AreWeBothCrazy]

For me this is incredibly relateable, i've been to the edge of the cliff and back. this poem is very powerful and descriptive and i can totally feel ur pain. but just remember that everything gets better, even if u feel like there's no hope. just find that thing that keeps you waking up in the morning. that person or that sensation or that activity. for me it was snowboarding. find something, anything, to make life worthwhile and u can make it. if u ever need to talk feel free to hit me up

[tizzy k]

wow that was deep

[Wolfwind Words]

To speak truth and have it be rebuked is their sin, not thine.

[watch_the_world]

This is so depressing, totally relateable though, you have a lot to live for... you are an amazing person and an amazing writer dont let that go to waste.

[Jonathan De Elvira]

yeah i can relate..
this was mournful and touches me in some way...
very descriptive...hope you're doing well.
'cause the longer you keep this the more you'll hurt yourself..
i know, i've been there and done that...