Destructive

Destructive

A Poem by Seth DeAlba

What is with all these things I do?
Self destructive behaviors that leave me reeling
From blow upon blow to my soul
Why do I do this?
What is wrong with me?
A thousand questions like sandpapers
Killing me with indecision and anger
Utter destruction of what is whole and good
Leaving me a shell of what I could have been
Craving things I shouldn't have
Wishing for an end to the suffering I cause
Maybe I should just disappear?
Leave and never return?
But I cannot do that
That would hurt too bad
Hurt too many
Life seems like a grey dull cloud
Of utter despair
There are no cares when you have no reason to live
And less reason to die
Why did it all happen?
Why was I born?
All these things dragging me down
Perhaps there is a reason for it
Perhaps not
All I know
Is that there isn't enough heart to go around
And everything these people demand
Destroys me
Completely 

© 2015 Seth DeAlba


Author's Note

Seth DeAlba
Just something I wrote thinking about the destructive behaviors of an addict. Please tell me what you think :)

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An awesome write. The emotional pain almost screams from the page. It seems there is never an answer to these painful questions. One must live and learn, somehow find their way in this cold world.. How sad is that? I don't know.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Seth DeAlba

9 Years Ago

Thank you very much, I am glad you enjoyed it. :)
Star Wolf

9 Years Ago

You're very welcome.

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Added on July 18, 2015
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Tags: Destruction, Drugs. Drug, Depression, Anger, Hate, Beginnings. Endings

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