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OSAD - A story about pillow talk

Cry into me.  You always do.  I soak up your tears like grass soaks up the warm spring rains.  Let it all out.  I know you’re sad.  I’m here for you, all the time, every time.  You know I never leave this spot.  Cry as much as you need to.  I can withstand the salty taste, the soggy feeling.  I can take it, really, I can.  I’m used to it.  I’ve dealt with it for years.  Please, don’t worry about hurting me.  You’re more important.

Beat me.  Punch me.  Throw me against the wall.  Slam me into things.  Do whatever you need to.  Vent out your frustrations.  Are you feeling better yet?  No?  Keep punching.  I won’t hurt your fists.  Just keep pounding away until you feel better.  Don’t worry about me; I can’t feel it anymore.  Just keep going.  Keep going until you’re better.  It’s better than things that can hurt you.  I won’t hurt you.  I can’t hurt you.  Therefore, I’m the perfect target.  Use me.  Abuse me.  It’s what I’m meant to do.

Scream at me.  Call me names.  Talk into me with a muffled voice, as if you’re smothering yourself in your own hatred.  Let me absorb it all.  Leave it all behind with me.  I’ll lock it away.  I’ll keep it away from the world.  You never need to worry about me letting any of this slip.  I’m the best at keeping secrets.   Keep revealing it all to me.  Keep talking.  Don’t ever silence yourself.  Let it all come out.  Unburden yourself.  Doesn’t that feel better?  Don’t you feel more relieved now?  Is the emotion flowing out?  Let it.  Let it all flow out.

Cry into me some more.  Once is never enough.  You need to cry more.  You always need to cry more.  You need to get rid of all the tears, else your eyes will always feel too heavy, your face will always look sad.  You need to cry a lot before you can finally be happy.  Let everything come out, all your anger, all your pain.  Let it all come out in your tears.  Let it all flow into me.  I’ll bury it.  You’ll never need to worry.

Lay down with me.  Let me caress your cheek.  Let your hair fall over me, like water over a rock.  Don’t go away.  Let me keep your comfortable.  You’re probably tired by now, right?  Close your eyes, rest right here.  The bad stuff is buried too deeply for you to feel.  Let yourself rest, and don’t worry.  My shell’s too hard for the bad things to come back.  You can sleep soundly now.  Have sweet dreams, let it all fade.

Hug me.  Embrace me as tightly as you can.  Hold me close to your warmth and let me make you smile again.  Wrap your arms around me, bury your face into me, laugh softly and whisper how much you love me.  Hug me while you make amends.  Hold me as you slowly start to smile.  Kiss me when your tears stop falling.  I’ll be waiting.

And when it all repeats, I will still be here, for always.

Author's Note

Critique is always welcome~