Flashbacks of Affliction

Seeking safety in others,

Wishing on every possible star.

The hourglass of solitude is running out.

Seeing visions of desolation,

Flashbacks of affliction.

Your moral compass is broken.

You're lost.

Following the stars back home

But to no victory, you’re losing vision

The last light flickers as you make your indecisive choice to leave, or to go

I lose when i love

Walking around with a broken halo

Ripped apart by the threads of our promises

Forgive me for my sins

No excuse for the thoughtless pain I put you through

A threshold of tears held back

Finding joy in a heartbeat

All roads lead me to your door

Breaking into pieces all over again

Still working towards success

Still following that same moral compass

A prisoner to your tears

They swallow you whole

Missing the past and fearing the future

Tearing apart everything you worked so hard for

And trying to forget it all

But where am I going?

Running on love falling into compulsiveness

Unable to think straight when you're hit in the face by jealousy

Tangled in confusion

Trying to pry my way out of the cage you put me in

Causing even more of a blur

History is fading into air

Transparent and questionable

Waiting for something that'll never come

Author's Note

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Reviews

[shallimarRose]

Serena your title called me here.. This is a very emotional read for me. I suffer flashbacks of a broken heart at the hands of my ex husband and of a rape many years ago that keep me bound in depression and darkness. PTSD they call it. Your poem is strong, thought provoking and relate-able to many I suspect. huggs, shallimarRose

[Serena Monteleone]

I'm really glad that I could connect with you in this. i'm sorry for your experience and you must be very strong! Thank you for your feedback!