Rejection

Part of That Summer Anthologies. Overcoming and accepting those dreadful moments in life can be difficult… specially if you give and don't receive.

Fear of rejection is one of the biggest fears one can have. Many years ago I found myself in a situation that it wasn't ideal or normal or even comprehensible for me to live at the moment.

 

Never before had I experienced something quite embarrassing as the moment when I had a kiss rejected. Here is how it all went down:

I met him in class, we became friends quickly and easily, I was positive that he liked me just as much as I did him, it turns out he had a serious case of morals…

“Can I visit you?” he asked one day.

“Sure,” I said, he was a friend and besides I liked him. We made plans for the afternoon but he for some reason canceled and ended up going three days later. It was a weekend and I was pleasantly at home reading when he texted me. He wanted me to go visit him, I was about to say yes when I decided suddenly, why should I? He ditched me first he has to come visit me.

He went and we talked, as usual, classes were over. Summer was passing by rapidly, and there wasn't much to do those days, everyone was out of town, well apparently some were still around…

I noticed how off he was, well I can say that now but actually I didn't realize a thing was amiss until the dreadful moment that I leaned forward and tried to kiss him, my lips upon his and… he just stared at me, “You better return it,” I murmured against him.

 “I can’t.” Was his reply, I was stunned of course. He dared do something like that to me? After all the flirting and knowing looks, and all the 100^th hints? But as it turned out, he had found someone in 3 freaking days, thinking about it know perhaps he had been planning something else with this unknown person for some time because it couldn't have been love at first sight or some idiotically reason like that. You might think he gave an excuse, eh surprise, he didn't elaborate.

He was even more cryptic than I could possibly come to understand. It was my first dose of rejection and it was enough, I wasn't full of myself in case you were wondering, I might sound a bit like that but I was just a normal girl, who saw a chance, took it and got burn real bad. With that definite act of humiliation which thankfully happened behind closed doors, I bowed to try and never put myself out there like that ever again, could you imagine something like that happening twice? Thank goodness, it cured me from ever attempting a ruse quite so ill-fortunate.

 

Perhaps, I am over reacting a bit? I don’t think so, a scene like that can happen to anyone and it would be equally awkward no matter where you are, alone or with 10 people watching it. Can you picture that with an audience? Thank the heavens we didn’t talk about it ever again and we manage to keep some kind of friendship, until the day he departed and I never saw him again.

 

He was a good friend and I sometimes think about him, I don’t dwell on it but that summer day brought me some insight into the things we shouldn’t do unless we are 100% sure, and even if we are… we go in knowingly that it could go wrong. But at least will learn for better or worse.        

Reviews

[Warrior]

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[Sela]

Whoa! Thank you really for your words. It has been so long since I read something like this about my stories, maybe it is a first entirely. I'm glad you liked them and I hope you will like the ebook I'm writing which will include more stories like these ones. Thank you once more and I'll make sure to read some of yours.