When my selfish thoughts return to me

"No matter who you are, or what you are. There will always be someone who cares."

It's like a red flashing light in front of me

I'm not sure why, or how

But it makes me feel so horrible

And I hide it in my left pocket

My right pocket is always empty

I can fill it with anything I want

My thoughts

My feelings

But, there's a catch

The red light steals it all,

It hides it in a shell

One that I

Can't even reach

So when my selfish thoughts return to me

What the hell am I doing

Feeling victimized

When I'm the one who shouldn't be pitied

That little red flashing light

I don't know what it is

I want to call it my friend

But, can I really?

It doesn't judge me

It accepts my flaws

My sadistic, mean, attention grabbing self

Even if it's horrible

Who the hell thought of a person being Sadistic anyway

How much of the devil can I contain

Yet still grab onto the innocence

That grabs onto my teenage soul

Is it just being a teenager

Do teenagers put others  in jail because they hate them?

Do they try to get others in trouble because they feel it's "fun" and they deserve it

What's wrong with me

I want to tell the truth

But the hard part

Is overcoming the fear

Of being left alone

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Harrisen Viator]

I like this poem. When I read it, I felt as if this "red light" must be your conscience, because it doesn't judge you, but you do understand that what you are doing is not right. It doesn't scold you on what you are doing wrong, it just lets you know. This is a very well written poem about going through teenage years and dealing with all the thoughts that flood your mind, and believe me I know how that feels.
-Harrisen

[s y e]

You've poured your feelings into this write, it was really good. Keeps the readers attention. nice job.

[Terohime]

Feeling is all through out this poem, it seems to be dragging me in. I enjoyed it . Good write.
~Res