A LETTER TO MYSELF

Saying what others don't have the guts to say to me and most of all, showing myself the love i need

Dear Nyiko



You might be wondering why i am writing you this letter, the necessity of my curiousity and generousity of taking my time to write you.


I want to tell you a couple of things you are tad bit ignorant about and tell you how awesome you are. At times you waste your time doing absolute nothing hence you aren't as effective as your genuine potential both at school and at the playfield.


Learn to organise your things in time for your own dearly seek, the reason i am writing this is to improve you, it is only about you the others don't really matter. You are plagued by mumbling a feeling of being unaccepted, unloved and not being up to par.


All that does not matter, if your mother accepts you, why should it matter if others don't? If you love yourself, why should it be a problem if others don't? If you are living for growth and understanding, why should you waste your time following trends? Don't be gullible by what others have to say about you. You are what matters to yourself and your growth.

You don't fall under the realm of coolness get that to you.



I'd love to encourage you to know the concept of self love and emotional intelligence in depth, knowing those two will make you greater in life. Always be in a position to secure your academical prowess which your family and other members of society praises you on and accept what you can't do rather than wasting time focusing on your flaws.


In society, you are regarded as a matured boy, helpful and comprehending beyond an average person of your age, take advantage of that, regardless what you think of yourself, why you think of it, i don't know but i know by intuition that you are very special not only to me but to a lot of people who can't express it.


Without a doubt, you will excel in your life academically, throughout your life it will be nothing but vast of happiness not necessary because you are a hard worker but because you are God's magnificence. The almighty loves you, always.


I know you are socially odd, it's not usual for people to like you, matter of fact, we both know most people don't but they see a loser, but are you a loser? No. Don't take what others think about you to be a fact , humans are very opinionated it surprises me when you get worked up just because of words said by humans with no sentiments worth making you get angry, work on your self esteem.


Why do you have to worry yourself because of your love life? You are still young utterly know nothing about love, don't force yourself into things you don't like to do. Feelings are a threat to your mental health, don't do things because society thinks everyone has to do, you are worth more than that. Occasion of heart - breaks will only make you not achieve whatever it is on your bucket list.


Look, i know you are doing poetry, had been in love with words to help you escape things of reality, well , that's a good thing. But all i can tell you is poetry makes you pretty much vulnerable fact being you are very emotional and you tend to lose it when you are writing your ''poetry'' i don't want you to be a good bad boy, your are worth more than that.


You've always been a dreamer, an internal optimist you have always been. It's a good thing, keep on dreaming of dreams which will make you go well in life. Don't let unconsciousness define who you are, live your life consciously for you have a brighter future ahead. Smell the roses whislt you can, life isn't waiting.


Enjoy the finite precious moments happening in your life as much as i enjoyed spending this precious time trying to point out a certain things to you. Above all i have mentioned, know that loving is growing, love everyone twice as much as you love yourself, even those who hate you, undermine you, be slow to anger and let love lighten up your path. Know that forgiveness is essential for eitther yourself and all other people.


Perhaps after all being mentioned, i know that being teased by most of your classmates which some of them are absolutely academically inferior to you have started taunting you about your oddness, it does not matter to you, all matters is being at school , studying and to get as high marks as you can.


Be thorough on who you trust, and pay extra attention on the kind of people you let in your life.

You are at times caught betweet thoughts of how long you are going to last as a medical specialist, but your perspective is quite mysterious, you refuse to be a realist at times hence i'm still in awe of your decision but eitherway, i believe in you and will always be behind you at anything you will persue. I value you more than life itself.


I always get it hilarious when you start questioning your fathers love for you, well, he has been away for more than 13 years of your life why should you give him the special attention if he is still trying to make you life as he wishes? No. He will be with you life he wants to, don't push anything for anyone. Try to make your understanding be in depth, forgiveness will make you a greater man than anyone can tell in your life. Give your-darker-self an opiate for that your life will be much lighter.



I encourage you to get your Christianity intact forget about the kinky deeds of nature. Slickness won't take you anywhere. You are the most important 17 year old old boy. People don't as always want to believe you, It's easier for people to judge you. Don't take them seriously, they are as curious as the other people who question the seriousness of your character. It's futile for your to explain yourself.



You are my future doctor, a father of your children and a delightful husband of your gorgeous wife.


Love you unconditionally.

From Nyiko

Author's Note

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[uNmAsKeD-dEluSiOns]

This was really neat how you were able to point out the flaws but reasons to keep your head up. You were completely honest with yourself and kept it real and new what needed to be said it seemed like. This was very good and inspiring for my soul and for my own flaws that I see in myself. It really touched my heart for some reason. You really do have a gift for writing. You are very wise

[The Chosen Poet]

Thank you very much for your honest words.