Fri(end)A Poem by NicoleIs there any point in loving
people? And I don’t mean love-love, Just love at all. Is there a high before the fall? Because I’ve loved people, but I’ve
reached the point, Where each person is just
delusions From a half-forgotten joint, Made up from facts I twisted
myself. It’s a sad fact to face, When you’re last in the race and
you realize No one Is ever going to love you Like you love them. No one will want you, Or ever be at hand, Just begging for love like you
do. I’m breathing in water, So I can wonder why I choke, I’m smashing myself, Only to see what I’ve broke. See what I’ve shattered. But in the end, What do I matter? Yes, we are friends, but I will
always need you more. I’m some sort of pet; Some bizarre charity case that at
times you regret, But then I’ll do you a favor, and
you will remember why you keep me around. I’m not wanted, and that’s the
truth. I’m no necessity, I only hold a place in your life,
because I put it there, Shoved my way in, Kicking and screaming, with
enough blood to beat sin. I give and I give and I give, And all I ever receive is a pat
on the head, A “good girl!” maybe, then it’s
as if I were dead. I want to be loved as a friend,
as a person, as a something. I just want to have my love be
equaled. If I’m ready to die in your
place, the least you could do is remember my face. Maybe once in a while ask if I’m
okay, Because I’m not. I can’t ever say that, though, It’s against the rules to let you
know That I am broken. Not only broken, but shattered. I must pretend to be okay for
you, But the truth is, Darling, if you
only knew, That I am far from okay. And you write little messages
saying that you “love me,” And that you’re “always there to
talk!” cuz I am “the bestest in the WHOLE WORLD!” But you know what? No. No, you did not mean that. And even if you did, why should I
be dumping my problems on you? You don’t deserve that. It’s not your problem I was
manufactured broken. And that’s why I smile. And that’s why I act okay. Because it’s only through lies That I get you to stay. And I just can’t bear to be
lonely again; Even if I starve for the touch of a hand. © 2012 Nicole |
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Added on November 8, 2012 Last Updated on November 13, 2012 Tags: friendship, friends, love, want AuthorNicoleAboutI'm not a normal person. That'd be too easy. "Imperfection is beauty, maddness is genius, and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." They tell me I wouldn't last one d.. more..Writing
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