Reign of Terror

Cut off from what is real

Emotionally drained

And mentally sedated

Really, I’m awake

But I can’t tell anymore…

It’s like living a half life

Living only what’s inside

Living voiceless emotions

And lost trains of thought

Physically dragging

Not caring today

Tomorrow

And still not giving up

Because giving up

Means giving in

To the little thoughts

That keeps telling me

To let the rage take over…

On the outside

Where control means everything

And losing it means insanity

The insanity

Of ripping papers from the walls

Throwing glass

Screaming out my insides

And drowning out my outsides

Losing sight of color

The madness of my mind

Unleashed

Broken windows

And busted lights

My darkest desires brought to life

And the ecstasy takes over

The craze clouds my eyes

And all that I held in

Will surface

Overflow

Drive me to the brink

Giving me a new definition

More depth

A hint of danger

Precariously buried inside

Readily awaiting

For it’s escape

Always awake

The monster in me

Containing a level of hell

Never experienced

Burning me to be set free

Simmering,

Gathering the strength

It needs

To break free of me

Defeat who I am

Recreate me

And begin a reign of terror

Beginning with me…

 

Reviews

[Arthur Crow]

The words are like a dagger of emotion sinking into the readers mind and soul.. beautifully intense and cleverly crafted. I love the raw and passionate mood it delivers, thanks for sharing!

[Robert Erickson]

completely and utterly and amazing , my love you truly shine when you are at your most adept isolated sensation =)

[Stephanie Marie<3]

Wow. I can relate to this completely. I've been so low like it describes in your poem &+ so close to giving up, and I'm glad neither of us did. Mistakes and problems only make us stronger.