Seems to Fail

And this time it seems

That all else will fail

When nothing holds what it held before

This is when I throw it down

Turn around

Leave this place

Forget the happiness

The laughter and love

Make it easier and remember

That heart that broke

That I lost

To the fury

The passion

The nights I opened it

In favor of all that was possible

I saw with eyes wide shut

Dreaming reality

In my mind

Nothing was what it was

Every thing held me back

In the same place

The same pieces

I thought I’d escaped

Long ago

This was a dream

Beyond my square one

Over my strife

Out of the darkness

And into the night

…the light…

Only the new moon

Aided with tiny lights

And still I wait

For all that could be…

All that I want to be

All that I think should be

But what if it won’t be…

Disappointment won’t bother me

Not this time around…

This is my background

My future

Today…tomorrow

It will make no difference

Whether I fail again…

It won’t mean a thing if it hurts again…

this is when I decide

To give up…

Or start again…

What’s it worth…

This decision…

Is it an option that I can take?

To whiten the black

That stains my soul?

What if more blood

Is about to be shed…

Can I forgive myself this time around?

Can I forget and turn it around

Again?

Or will I be left to myself

To be devoured with the knife?

The pain not pouring…

Not flowing out with the blood

That’s so quickly running

Out of my veins?

The memory collecting

Gathering together inside my walls

Pounding from the inside

Taking over

Consuming

And destroying me

Will I let it?

This time around…

I’ve got to turn around….

Stay around when all else seems to fail…

Or try…

Reviews

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You display a captivating, philosophical view of the 'self' with great preponderance.
"And this time it seems
That all else will fail
When nothing holds what it held before
This is when I throw it down
Turn around
Leave this place
Forget the happiness..." ~ I like how you start the poem off. The whole piece is written well and flows smoothly.

[Flow]

This was absolutely wonderful love the meaning and flow of it.

[James Ci]

I LOVE THIS. i feel i can relate

[Nicholas Hallows]

The first couple of times I read this I didn't really know the journey I was being taken on - I just enjoyed the spontaneity and flow of it. Now I appreciate the journey and the flow. There are some great lines too. I especially like:

And this time it seems
That all else will fail
When nothing holds what it held before

and

Disappointment won't bother me
Not this time around�
This is my background
My future

Good job!