anxiety

a (not-so)brief episode

shaking
quaking
twitching
itching
scratching
never relaxing
never the chance to breathe " in and …
…out the door
hit the floor
running
to a destination unknown
known to be out of reach
but still reaching for greatness
when greatness only slips
through
my
fingers

fingers that tap the table
rhythmically
sending my body
into an uncontrolled dance
of shaking
quaking
twitching
itching
scratching
never relaxing
never time to stop

my mind racing
leaving my mouth chasing
words never spoken
am I broken
on a level unknown
or is it known
but not shown
to the world
instead curled
inside my head
making me seem brain dead
but instead
my brain is more alive
it just can’t thrive
on normal levels
of non interaction
when you run away from me
scared because
I am shaking
quaking
twitching
itching
scratching
and never relaxing

Author's Note

I have a severe anxiety disorder along with other "issues". This is a small sample of what it almost feels like.

Lack of punctuation is for effect. It is supposed to be ran through.

Reviews

[Shandra Sun]

Dear w,
The rythm of anxiety is catched in your words.
I believe some "issues" are the windows to other dimensions of existence, that are opening more and more on our world.
Thank you for your poem and, yes, you are right. The punctuation would just affect the chaotic flow of panic that you express so well.

[GunMetal]

"my brain is more alive
it just can’t thrive
on normal levels
of non interaction" - Love that.
This has a velocity that is unmistakable. Even before I read your note I felt the anxiety in this piece. Well written, my friend.

[Owlgirl]

Great job, puntuation isn't needed and the jaggad rythm helps the image being portrayed. Well written, hope your okay!

[The Pain Stays Fresh]

I like it. It makes me kind of twitchy. You've done a wonderful job portraying the way you feel.

[Corset]

You have given us a perfect example of how this feels, it trips down the page in a hurried frenzied pace, you are very descriptive and It makes me breath to steady myself! well done!

[Rach]

BAM. Amazing. I like the connecting words. There is an awesome fast paced rhythm you follow when reading. Its really nice. I like it.

[Mackenzie Brooke]

i really enjoyed this you have great rythm and flow GREAT JOB :D

[Alana McGuire]

I decided that I definitely had to read this when I saw the title. I, too, have an anxiety disorder, so I find comfort in reading words that remind me that even though no one around me understands; I'm not alone.
I love the way you described the mental and physical effects that take place. I also really enjoyed how well it all flows together. I, too, use a lack of punctuation when I want a certain flow.
Very well done!

[SHEEMA HUQ]

For me this reads like something you could put to music, I enjoyed, thanks.

[allie_arrowz]

I like how the reader goes into your brain and experiences it with you. I think anything to add would be imagery to make your feelings come alive more.