Freak Of Nature

Freak Of Nature

 

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Obsessed

           Freak                              

                Ugly.

 

All words I was thinking

Of when you were upset with me.

Stupid

        I was so stupid

                            So obsessed.

 

I don’t want to

Be like this.

 

You think it’s easy

To let go of a part

Of yourself?

 

Well, it’s not.

I’ve been trying

For years without

Success.

 

 

Bitchy

       Crabby

             Cynical

                    Grumpy

                          Miserable.

 

 

All a part of my personality

It’s not fair that I have to try to hide

Them away from people, as if they’re not to be seen.

 

If you want

I can be nice

I can be helpful

 

But only if you let me be myself.

 

To be myself

I have to rear my ugly head

Once in awhile

 

Sure, I know I have anger issues

Sure, I get mad at the dumbest, littlest things.

 

But does it matter? You’re my friend.

It shouldn’t matter whether I’m depressed, emo,

Or just plain whiny.

 

You said you’d always be there

But whenever you get mad at me

I can’t help but wonder

 

Will you leave,

Just because I piss you off,

Just because you wish I didn’t have all

The negativity that I do?

 

I hope not

Because then that would mean that

You were never truly my friend to begin with.

 

And that alone would just kill me.

 

I don’t like feeling like a

Freak of Nature.

 

 

Reviews

[JelliFyshKissUs]

Oh, the array of thoughts with different font--brilliant! We are all a bit cynical and crazy from time to time, and it is those who believe we should only have highs and never have lows that can't handle us. You portray the erratic emotional and mental thoughts spot on. Nicely done.

[Rose Tyler]

None of us like feeling this way, but we all think this at some point in time..

[Legion]

If you feel you are a freak of nature, change it and become a force of nature. Embrace yourself before you embrace others. It is the only way to be truly happy. Good write.

[heich]

nice one..

[Cheyenne]

Very nice and emotional write!

[Snickers]

I really thought this was amazing and so true, but feeling like a freak of nature, isn't all that bad. Trust me, I have fun being a freak at my school.

[dovetailer]

think you focus on th sadder side of us...the side that all true friends struggle to love...but part of you all the same...there must be a balance of traits that offset those that are so trying...some redeeming qualities that draw others to love you...don't be mistaken...true friendship is love of a kind...some common feeling that draws you together...one the moth...the other the light... it is that attraction that keeps us together...like a mutual gravity...
Sure, you might piss them off...they might frustrated at times...
but it is this mutual bond that makes it easy to forgive and forget...
We shouldn't have to change to please them...but that doesn't keep us from wanting to change to please them...and they for you...
Very thoughtful sentiments...

[Matthew Kult]

Hello Kristen,

I enjoyed the beginning format and wish you wouldn't have gotten away from it. It added that little extra for me. You have a way about you when you write about this one particular friend, I assume it is the same one. Forgive if it is not. You are about three steps away from completely driving yourself insane. I like this.

Regards,

Matthew

[nono]

I like this a lot...No one should ever be thought of as a freak of nature. In fact I think everyone should shut up and stop gossiping for a second and realize look in the mirror I ain't perfect...even if they look it...It's the inside that counts I ain't no hippo crate I will talk to a kid who isn't the most attractive I guess and you know what not every time they're the nicest other times they're total jerks..but hey as is life. And you did a nice job on this I think we call all learn from it. And remember your never ugly your never a freak if your mean yeah your ugly, but only on the inside. Nicely done!

[Coyote Poetry]

You are not a freak of nature. Just like all of us. We need time to be alone or someday best to stay away. When I'm filled with bad spirits. I try to stay away from people. A very good poem. Real friends knows and understand you. A person who is always happy scare me. A excellent poem. I like the set-up of the words.
Coyote