Confessions of a Revenant

There's a shadow on the wall,

longer than I am tall.

Just over my shoulder;

your warmth has gotten colder.

It finds me in the dark;

runs each time I look.

Wish that I could find you

so the pain could be revoked.

***

Somber August sun,

the colors have started to run.

Drunk on drafts of self-loathing,

deadened by the music blaring,

til the words no longer sting.

Haunting amber moon,

her gentle, lonely tune.

Lullaby for my wicked heart

echoes from her starry rampart.

Together yet forever apart.

***

There's a shadow on the wall,

longer than I am tall.

Name forever on my lips

yet just beyond my fingertips.

Sleep was where I'd find

the light of mine that used to shine.

But now I've come to realize

there's only darkness before my eyes.

***

Even now I lay here

praying that I might hear

the voice I used to hold dear

and one day I'll be free

of this silent misery.

But it's just me here

and no amount of tears

will erase the words seared

in the front of my mind.

Bright enough to leave me blind.

***

There's a shadow on the wall,

longer than I am tall.

Whispers from a lifetime past

and a promise made that was meant to last.

Specter in my head

fills the space inside my bed.

Once upon a time I believed

but now I fear it's only grief.

Author's Note

I have a confession to make. I feel I've been disingenuous with my writing in the past - pulling punches and toning down my work in the hopes of making it sound nice or read nice. Sunshine and roses among even some of my more bleaker pieces.

I'm done with it. From here out, I'm bringing the house with every word. If you find certain topics heavy or uncomfortable, you might want to reconsider me as your reading material. I feel like I've cheated myself and my readers from the experiences they deserve. If you're investing your time in my work, I'm going to give you MY work, not the abridged version.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the honest thoughts and realistic feel of your words and thoughts.
"There's a shadow on the wall,
longer than I am tall.
Whispers from a lifetime past
and a promise made that was meant to last."
I liked the above lines. Real life and direct. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[GalaxyGhost]

Writers "comfort the disturbed and disturb the comforted." I, too, write dark stuff or sarcastic stuffs once in awhile and I'm glad you're finding your style of writing. :D