Before You Found Me

A dedication to my husband. He continues to inform me that he should love me when I feel I have only shamed all who know me.

Before you found me,

I was dead, lying in shreds,

Dry inside and guilty

For no more blood would shed.

 

Before your kind words touched me,

Loneliness was my ally,

Protecting me from insult and agony

Because I had no alibi.

 

Before your first gaze at me,

I guaranteed my earned right to anguish

Wishing to be consumed, hastily,

Forever being a slave to their constant wish.

 

Before your voice loved me,

I knew the reason for the result

Of being their bloody detainee

To their undying need was my fault.

 

Before you stretched out your hand to me,

I could hear my dishonorable shackles clang

Just knowing everyone saw them cling to me,

As my scarlet letter of immorality sang.

 

Before you devoted your love to me,

I learned expectations of me stayed the same,

Thus I anticipated for your wrath onto me

To show me how truly polluted I became.

 

Before you rescued me,

I was numb and felt no warmth nor cold

I had died, just like the trees

In the winter.  Any morality left; sold.

 

After you found me,

Fear lingered, not knowing

What was up your sleeve,

Or what my sign was showing.

 

After your words touched me,

I grew excited that you could hear,

For I thought that perhaps it was me;

Perhaps I was destined to stay silent here.

 

 

After you first gazed at me,

I grew weary of your physical might,

But so badly wanted to see

Whose brilliance I captured in sight.

 

After your voice loved me,

I showed you my disreputable disgrace,

Ready for you to condemn me,

Waiting for my next infamy, truly base.

 

After you stretched our your hand to me,

I relayed to you with utmost confusion.

When you know I’m filthy, why hold me?

I grabbed your hand with much mystification.

 

After you devoted your love to me,

I hid in your light for as long as time permitted,

As your warmth and love enveloped me

Into a world which I never knew existed.

 

After you rescued me,

I became yours, forever safe in your creed

Of warmth, light, and esteem,

Still teaching me to accept kindness, your greatest deed.

 

Now that you yearn for me,

For my broken spirit, your spirit has become its sanctuary,

As you help shed away obscurity

While putting together the pieces that survived my toxicity

Reviews

[Daniel Gardner]

Thank you for this poem. It truly is a great addition to the poem book. Just added it!

[Crowley]

Really great tribute. I loved it.

[Steve]

Words cannot express how honored I am to be the subject of such a truely heartfelt tribute. You deserve not only great praise for your strength, wisdom, and kindness, your spirit deserves to finally feel safe at all times, in all places.

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

What a beautiful warm poetry , you owe him a lot and I know how you appreciate his kindness. I do believe you found a true Angel .... sent by God to help you

Hugs , Yossi