Doubt

Doubt

A Poem by Savy

i don't talk about you anymore

i often wonder whether they can tell
that i'm telling but not all
that i'm hiding behind my smiles and time tables
and that you're still on my mind

am i a fool?
am i kidding myself enough for the both of us?
did you not have to do anything in the end 
because i lied to myself enough 
did i do your work for you?

it doesn't hurt me anymore, you know
I lie
but seeing your face so distorted makes my hands shake
and hearing your voice, destroyed, beaten
makes my heart ache
and feeling my blood run faster makes me angry
and in general something in me feels like it'll break

you can't make me run like this anymore
you can't continue making me feel this way anymore
i'm hurting and i'm yearning, but worst of all 
I'm hoping
for you to turn around, for you to clear the fog, for you to finally respond
for you. to come back the way you left

abruptly. unexpectedly. quietly. quickly.

© 2019 Savy


My Review

Would you like to review this Poem?
Login | Register




Reviews

i understand the doubt expressed by the speaker...because does anyone come back the way he or she left?
i sense not...
no matter how much we yearn for that person to do just that.
j.

Posted 5 Years Ago



Share This
Email
Facebook
Twitter
Request Read Request
Add to Library My Library
Subscribe Subscribe


Stats

65 Views
1 Review
Added on January 24, 2019
Last Updated on January 24, 2019
Tags: doubt, poem, freeverse, free verses, uncertainty, crush, love

Author

Savy
Savy

Writing
Nothing Nothing

A Poem by Savy


Fighting Fire Fighting Fire

A Poem by Savy