Estranged

so unfamiliar

How foreign to be in the same room but not know what to do

Suddenly I'm stumbling over my own words and speaking in circles

As if I don't know anything about you and I am clueless how to keep conversation

I look at the ceiling and the walls

I look at my nails and my phone

Something fix this; save us

Suddenly there is distance while we share a space

and there's millions of miles between our eyes ,for they never meet

My hands fumble and patter

twisting my hair, spinning my ring, 

tracing my eyebrows with my thumb, 

anything to occupy them

The moment the silence breaks through,

it is then I swear I hear your heartbeat or maybe even mine because of how hard it beats for you

It is then, I feel lost looking for your reassurance

and my hands, they are purely estranged

looking to weave themselves into yours