Time to HeaI

Why ? 

Why is this happening to me again ?

I was trying to get over someone .. and In a weird and confused phase..

and you just suddenly came along ..

Broke into my heart like a storm ..

with all your emotions and feelings that I wasn't even ready for ..

came into my life and just made me more confused .. more lost ..

Why did you even come ?!

I seriously don't need more heart break in my life ..

My heart can't tolerate any more pain...

It cannot feel ,cry , weep , break or anything ..

it just needs space from everything ..

I need to give my heart time to heal ..

It needs to be alone for now ..

away from everyone ..

and cold .. or let's say not feel a damn thing ..

its been dead for a while ..

and it needs time to heal ..

to get back on track ..

and feel again ..

Having you just makes things more complicated..

you kissing me that night made me lost in words..

lost in emotions ..

lost in feelings..

Are you just playing a game with me?

cause my heart cannot tolerate any more lies or games anymore..

I have a feeling that one day ..

you might pack your bags and leave ..

So what my heart will do is try to keep its emotions and feelings turned off..

stay neutral for a while ..

I am going to have to move on .. 

And leave you and leave all this crazy roller coaster of emotions that you have behind..

I cannot put my heart into another trauma .. or pain ..

I won't allow it to happen ..

I won't do it to my heart ..

I won't allow you or anyone else hurt my heart again ..

I have the full right to give my heart time to heal ..

to rest , to relax  and stay away from pain ..

Yes,

I will leave my heart rest ..

take  a break from everyone ..

You are going to have to deal with it ..

For once , I will let my heart be selfish ..

And just care about itself this time ..

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

I missed your writes Sasha...You have shared with us this roller coaster of emotions. Sometimes we need rest and pondering...Bravo................

[Sasha]

Yeah ! I miss writing ! I haven't wrote in a really long time !
Yeah .. tell me about it .. :/
Thank you Sami :)

[Sami Khalil]

I was wondering. Oh, well. We all have reasons...You are welcome...:).................