Roller Coaster

One day you rise me up ..

up above the clouds..

envelope my heart with memories and joy ..

The other day you rip my heart out..

and drag me so down that my heart feels nothing at all ..

What on earth do you want me to do ?

I told you how I feel..

how my heart feels about you ..

why can't you just open your heart to me and forget about the world?

why can't you just be normal?

Why do you keep putting my heart through all these roller coaster rides?

Happy and excited , then Scared and frightened and I just want it to be over ..

why are you making me feel that way??

I am leaving in two weeks ..

starting somewhere new ..

and the fact that my heart will no longer see you , or see your smile was so painful at first ..

but now , when you froze my heart to death with your cold attitude ..

I no longer care anymore ..

your birthday is coming up .. should I get you a gift?

No ! Screamed my heart ! 

its true .. you forgot about my birthday anyways ..

why would I care about yours?

Two days ago you gave me that look ..

that look that made me lose myself in your eyes ..

that I wanted to kiss you so bad .. but my whole body couldn't move an inch ..

How could your soul , your heart be this cold to me ?

How ?? How ?!

I don't know what to say .. or how to feel ..

Numb ? Neutral ?

Best thing .. Answered my heart ..