There you go again..

What is wrong with you ?!

Wait .. more like , what's wrong with your heart ?!

Why is it so damn cold !?

Why does it always come close , really close and then .. pushes me away ?!

How could you do this to me ?!

After all what I did for you ..

After all the nights I stayed up for you ..

When you were drunk , when you were down , I would be there on the other line cheering you up and doing whatever it takes just to lift you up every time you fell down. .

what else do you want me to do ?!

I literally used every single energy inside of me for you ..

Everything !!

You called me so drunk that day .. you were a mess.. a total mess..

I stayed with you , calmed you down and didn't sleep until I made sure you were okay ..

but the second day , you forgot everything .. I called you , as if I was a stranger ..someone you didn't feel like talking to ..

Is this how your heart reacts to a heart that has been beating and pumping love for ?!

Why ?! You made my heart so numb to everything you do ..!

You get drunk , disappear when your in your dark phase , hurt my heart , walk away and then come back asking me for forgiveness ?!

Why ?!?! What did I do to deserve this ?!

I am done ..

done with you ..!!

I saw you today .. you didn't even seem excited to see me .. 

gave me a hug ..

I looked you in the eyes .. my eyes were so clear that I really am not okay and that I miss you ..

you smiled..

didn't say a word ..

I asked : "when am I going to see you" 

I haven't seen you in a week , and it seemed like a year ..

you said ..

soon ..

Soon ?!!? What kind of reply is that ?!

I looked at you  , with hurt in my eyes .. 

"okay , I'll see you later" 

And walked away so angry that I wanted to punch every single person in front of me ..

1 hour later, nothing

2 hours later , still nothing 

3 , 4 hours later .. no message no call .. n o t h i n g !

Oh my .. 

my heart is so numb that I can no longer cry anymore ..

fine ..

I won't call , or text or anything this time !!

This time I will leave you and be so damn cold ..

" I cant do that " my heart jumped suddenly !

I'll be waiting .. just in case .. my heart said ..

Reviews

[Bhumika Devkota]

That guy doesn't deserve anyone. Great writing.