I Will Make it !

I look at myself in the mirror ..
My eyes are worn out ..
under them are dark circles ..
My skin .. looks bad ..
why is my hair bad ? why is my skin dry ?? why are my eyes tired??
Why do I look so damn awful ?!
Why am I making myself suffer?
Why am I not sleeping at night ?!
Why am I having these sudden bad awful moments that flip my mood 180 degrees upside down ?!

I admit it was hard .. Okay I understand that I was hurt ..
hurt my heart , my eyes everything in my body was hurt by him ..
Most of all .. I lost "ME"
I no longer can find myself ..
its like I am a total different person !!

No ! I will not feel lost ..!
No ! I will not give up !!
No ! I won't loose !
Yes , its hard , but I can do it !
I will sleep again , wake up smiling again !
Will get back to taking care of myself !
Taking care of "ME"
I will find myself again !!
I will !
I will !
I will get my heart back to normal .. !
I don't care about anything anymore ..
I just want to get "ME" Back !!
I want myself back again ..
That's all ..
and I will do it !


Yes ..
I will ..

Reviews

[Buddhistboy73]

Ah the pain of loving and losing...the human experience that unites us...something to get through and learn from....and yes, to "get our heart back to normal"......."to get ME back".....and yes, you will....thanks for sharing this heartfelt piece here...:)
BB

[Sami Khalil]

Reclaiming the self with all its will as you embark on a new vision and identity that is left. Bravo.............

[TL Boehm]

I just want to get me back. Amen.

[Sasha]

Thanks! :)