I Hate my Heart for Loving you ..

I woke up this morning with a severe pain in my chest ..

Pain that I have never felt before in my entire life ..

Pain that not any heart can bare or tolerate  ..

I used to say I'd rather feel pain than feel nothing at all..

I take that back ..

I take back every single word in that sentence ..

Cause the pain I am feeling today is something that killed my heart and soul ..

Killed every single organ in my entire body ..

Killed my memory ..

My eye sight ..

My senses ..

Everything ..

Every morning I wake up thinking that the pain will just disappear or fade away ..

But no ..

It gets worse and worse every single night .. every single morning .. every single afternoon ..every single evening ..

 

I wish I can just erase everything ..

The pain I am feeling ..

The feeling that your gone ..

 The feeling that I will never see you again ..

I had my heart set on you ..

But nothing else hurts like you do ..

Who knew love was so cruel ??

I waited and waited so long ..

For someone to come in my life and make it complete ..

For a second I thought that that person was you ..

 

 

I was totally mistaken..

I was totally a fool for falling for you ..

You hurt me ..

Killed my heart and soul ..

And left me in the dark without anything at all..

How will I ever forgive you ?

How will my heart get over all this pain ?

Why is my heart holding on to something that just causes it pain and pain and pain and pain??

 

Why didn't I just shut down my emotions and feel nothing at all ?

 

Why did I open my mouth and heart ?!

Why ?!

It's my fault to think you'll be true ..

Reviews

[:o]

I've been there before. If the pain doesn't get you the emptiness will. You did a great job of writing this.

[Sasha]

Thank you :)

[Scott Metro]

The pain can be crippling...capturing your entire life...
Only time or the love of another can cure and sometimes even that only diminishes it.

Enjoyed your sorrow.
Scott

[Sasha]

True ..
Thanks Scott :)

[Hessy]

nice poem explaining how painful heartbreak is. so goodluck

[Pryde Foltz]

I wish too sometimes I could shut off emotions but that never turns out. Great write,

[Sasha]

Tell me about it !
Thanks for your feedback ! :)

[Sasha]

Tell me about it ..
Thanks for your feedback :)

[Pax]

this feels like a heartbreak gone really painful. In its first stages of being broken, its a hard process to make your everything back to normal. Healing takes time, and great effort to stay alive when you know your heart just died. But in the end, when you'll able to go through every struggles. It will feel lighter in time. I like this piece, the feelings are well portrayed and executed in words. very nice!

[Sasha]

Indeed it is .. What's even harder is choosing to move on or just remembering their memories while sitting down .. and spacing out for hours .. :/

Thanks Pax !

[Frieda P]

Love can be cruel, bring us great happiness or shoot us down. Broken trust makes us question what's wrong with us, nicely pen'd. Great song too.

[Sasha]

Thanks Frieda ! =)

[Lydia Shutter]

No, I don't believe anyone who loves is a fool. The heart wants what the heart wants and we follow unknowingly. There is so much heartbreak, honest emotional pain, and self-flagellation in this write...and it is expressed well. Lydi**

[Sasha]

Thanks Lydia :)
Appreciate your feedback ! :)

[Tom]

Oh deary me I spoke to soon, it wasn't all happy ever after in the end !!

A poignant, passion tale of broken romance !

[Sasha]

Tom this is someone else .. not related to the same guy in the cafe poem :)

[Tom]

Oops I see !

[Sasha]

:) No worries :)

[Sami Khalil]

A doctor or an emergency room might help...Just kidding...
A strong poem and feelings indeed...:)................

[Sasha]

Lol
Naah they won't do a thing !

Thanks Sami ! :)

[Sami Khalil]

Hahaha...You are welcome...:)................