Scared

I was listening to this song while writing this master piece .. Lana Del Rey - Young & Beautiful (Cedric Gervais Remix) <3 <3

I look at the calender ..

two more days left ..

I am scared as a child afraid of ghosts or monsters ..

I am terrified ..

I am mystified ..

I am afraid of having a glimpse of that face of yours ..

I have been wanting to see you for a long time ..

and now that I want to ..

I don't want to in the same time ..

I am afraid of the second that my feet start walking towards you ..

those little steps are like the hardest thing I am going to do ..

approaching you and looking into your eyes ..

wanting to hold you and saying nothing at all ..

and taking you away to this other place..

where its just you and I ..

You are unpredictable ..

so whatever I am going to do ..

either I will get hurt ..

or disappointed ..

I wish you can just look me in the eyes ..

stand up ..

and hold me in your arms ..

I swear that would mean the world to me ..

but there is a huge chance that  that wont happen ..

there is a huge chance where you might look at me .. sink into my eyes ..

and just simply walk away ..

what am I supposed to do ..

I need to end this war inside my head and forget about you ..

but I can't seem to have the power to do that ..

I just keep on getting weaker when it comes to you..

I don't know what to do ..

should I look at you in those mysterious eyes of yours and walk away ..

act like I am strong and I don't care .. 

or look at you .. walk towards you .. get close to you ..hold your hand ..take you with me ..

and tell you ..

I miss you ..

rub my hands through your hair ..

touch your pretty face ..

trace your lips ..

and forget about the whole world outside ..

Or ..

Avoid seeing you at all ..

and spare my heart all the pain ..

Reviews

[Dye]

So much personal torment. I have been in this spot before, the fear of the unknown can be suffocating. But the not knowing can kill you. You really got your point across in this.

[Sasha]

Thanks Dye !

[TL Boehm]

wonderfully penned - the choice in those last two lines is so often our default defense mechanism, unfortunately it never seems to work.

[Sasha]

that is so true :/

[The Sun Princess]

Oh! This is so moving. You have clearly captured something deep and meaningful. Your expression, pace, tone and voice are incredible. I don't even know what else to say - very powerful and emotive.

Such a beautiful writing style, great work.

[Sasha]

wow ! Thank you ! =D