A Message

I wrote the words ..

I miss you ..

I clicked your name and typed down these three words in a message ..

but It took me 15 minutes to decide if I should press send .. or delete ..

it was like a war in my head ..

It was like a huge and hard decision that I could not make ..

I stood there leaning against the wall ..

thinking what would happen if I had sent it ..

what if you replied .. "thank you" like last time ..

or what if you didn't reply ..

What would happen to me ?

I would feel really hurt and would hate you even more ..

I can't seem to get you out of my head ..

Its easy to erase your number ..

and just move on ..

but no ..

I can't ..

I need to check your name everyday and see if you are still there..

I wish I can know how you are doing ..

although I am sure you don't care how I am doing ..

do you even miss me ?

are you hurt cause I left without saying goodbye ??

until now , I cant believe I did that ..

I just wish I can go back in time ..

hold you one last time .. and walk away ..

but in that moment .. my heart didn't listen to me ..

it was so strong that it looked you in the eye ..

and simply walked away ..

you never said or did anything ..

and that leaves me ..

with nothing ..

and by time ..

I will realize that I am here .. and your there ..

thousands of miles apart ..

things will change ..

and we will both move on ..

but I am sure that if we run into each other one day ..

we will look at each other with silence ..

and our eyes will do the rest..

damn .. I miss you ..

Reviews

[ron]

That is the hardest thing to live with...not knowing what would have happened when wee miss the opportunity to say what is on our mind and wish we had said something. I have many of those times. I love this poem very much.

[Sasha]

my gosh its extremely difficult !
Thanks Ron !

[ron]

Yes it is. I think most people do not realize just how difficult it can be unless they have gone through the same thing. But we can all get through it as long as we have some one who cares.

[Sasha]

True ..
We always learn something from each experience..
And best of all .. become stronger !

[ron]

That is true for the ones that can see it.

[TL Boehm]

damn. I miss you. this whole poem is like breath held and eyes closed - fingers crossed and waiting for a kiss ... that never comes. A kiss that can't be wished into existence.
I have felt this ache but I've never been able to articulate it with type of eloquence you display here. Well penned.

[Sasha]

Thank you ! =D

[Patrick O'Neil]

Really full of emotion,longing, some regret and acceptance. Great write.

[Sasha]

thanks Ptx :)

[SyberRose]

Nicely penned piece...I enjoyed reading...Rose

[Sasha]

Thanks Rose ! Appreciate it ! :)

[annabellee]

such a great description of your thoughts, I loved it a lot, very moving piece.
Well penned :)

[Sasha]

Thanks Annabelle !

[annabellee]

you're most welcome :)

[Sasha]

A heartfelt struggle here Sasha, well written, love can be sometimes very unfair.

- Elisa

[Sasha]

Definitely ! Thanks Elisa :)

You are welcome! :)

[Just Kim]

WOW this pulls on the heartstrings,
Nicely expressed feelings.

[Sasha]

Thanks Sprinkles ! :)

[Just Kim]

you are very welcome : )